Circle of Influence First!

I've been preparing something as I want to join the AP Year-Ender Talent Contest. I want to join because of the prize at stake. Haha! It would be nice to win some bucks so that we can have something for Christmas' eve or NY's eve. If ever I'll win, even consolation prize, 50 for me and 50 for my mom. I already asked help from Rhea to be my creative director and probably help me in the video editing.

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On the other hand, I have so many pending tasks in my personal life. 

- Roshi's neuter

- Roshi's deworm and 5-in-1

- MikMik's deworm and 4-in-1

- Copper and Frappe's de-worm

- Plan out my December leaves (budget; where and when to go)

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Random thoughts:

Maybe, my love is really my right person. My love never denies my existence as her partner at her workplace. And she always say "thank you" to my simple gifts, even though she doesn't really need/like them. I feel a little bit flattered that she appreciates me and my efforts. Though we both wanted to have private lovelife, she didn't deny that she's already in a relationship - even to people who are expressing their intentions to her. With that, I'm confident about her.

She also told me something like this yesterday, "Habang lumilipas ang mga araw, lalo ako na-iinlove sayo. Wag mo na tanungin paano dahil di ko rin alam." She's not an expressive kind of person. It's taking a lot of her to be honest and say what she really feels. And I really appreciate this confession she made. So lucky to have her.

Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

New Life, New Living Space

I'm gonna show you the concept of my new bed-work space. ^_^

I'll have my foam be customized (size). Will still check the possible price. Haha!

All parts are removable - base, lower box, upper bed frame, and drawer stairs - so that I can bring them to my condo when I start going to office after pandemic. 

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Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

Be patient. The best has yet to come.

I don't know anything at all. But I think I understand.

YES! God is preparing something greater than any human can think of. I just have to be patient. Been praying for the right partner since 14 years old.

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So thankful to my anti-depressant med and my discipline to have healthy lifestyle - workout 2-3x a week, meditate everyday, avoid sweets, no softdrinks, no junk food, quality time with family and furbabies, and smile.

It's okay to not feel good everyday. I just have to embrace all the emotions I am feeling including sadness and loneliness.

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Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

No lovelife until I have more than 5M worth of assets

Felt so devastated. Why ? Why am I experiencing this again ?

(Rove, you asked for more predicaments from

God right? He's just testing your resiliency by targeting your weaknesses. You have to learn to overcome it and probably change your actions / mindset to be better.)

Okay. Have to think that it's part of His test. I need to be more compassionate and understanding to his children - and that includes チャ.

(Remember: God and Jesus know that Judas will betray them but They chose him anyway. Because They know his heart - deep within is a good person.)

Be like Christ. Grow in Christ. Seek God's guidance and He will make your path straight.

Okay. Should get back to being 'no messaging app' lifestyle. I don't wanna talk to anyone anymore except for my family. Got to delete again these Online Dating Apps I just downloaded now. 😒 Will get back to dating scene once the world has cured from this pandemic. Got to re-align my mind to my goals. My goals are more important than my personal lovelife. Got to be rich and have financial freedom before I reach the age of 40.

"No lovelife until I have more than 5M worth of personal assets."

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*Personal assets, because I already have more than 5M worth of assets from my parents.

Rove In-progress

Loving the work-life balance during this pandemic. 😁😆 

My non-work activities:
- Meditate before sleep everyday
- Everyday 5PM Me Time @ the rooftop, meditating
- Workout 2-3x a week
- Monitor my portfolio every weekday
- Reading books (current below)

- Listening podcast

- Sometimes QT with the kids (Riri, Venice, and kittens) 😁

CBTL! Yeah! TMR! Yeah! GG! Yeah! Arigatou gozaimasu!~

Yeah! Finally got my CBTL planner!  Thank you everyone! 

Finally purchased Girls' Generation The Boys shirt from YesAsia! Yey! 

Added Run Devil Run album to make the shipping free of charge. 

Would like to go to Galleria tomorrow to buy The Morning Rush book and have it signed. 

However, I'm On-Call this weekends. 

Anyway, I'll still go when the clock strikes at 1PM. 

I'll just pray and hope to Him that no critical issues will happen. 

Be positive! Walang aayaw! 

Thank you God! I love you!

P.S. Tomorrow is the flight of our mom going home. 

Misses my babuy. 

lose interests.. don't know. XD

Anhirap matulog sa current shift ko ngayon.. 

People around me makes me crazy.

How will I get to sleep properly if during the day the chickens kept on singing, uh?

How will I get to sleep properly if people at homie kept on knocking the door, uh?

How will I get to sleep properly if they kept on entering the room then sayin' their speeches, uh?

Not only that, I should wake up in the morning to check out Rain 'cause Rhea didn't even bother to look at it before she goes to school. 

And I should wake up in the morning and in the afternoon to fill my stomach who's about to eat my intestines. 

That's how I get my sleep, putul-putol. 

I think that's why I don't want to talk anymore.

I don't want them to know it too of course.

Nakakatamad na mag-explain at mag-salita.

Nakakatamad na i-defend ang sarili or ipaliwanag ang real intentions.

Nakakapagod... Sayang sa effort at sa time. 

And if I'm in the normal shift, mid-shift and morning shift..

I guess, the result will be the same, nakakatamad parin mag-salita.

Why? After work, people around asks for a lot of things.

Parents ask for favors, work at home.

Siblings tell a lot of stories, which might be deafening to me. 

And ask for their little favors.

To avoid conflicts, as much as possible, I'll just do the things they say.

Or just ignore the nonsense things they say but should show that I'm listening and interested.

And If I know that I'm not in a so well good mood, I just try not to talk. 'Cause I might burst. 

You know what I mean.

People are crazy. It's getting tiring to know their whereabouts. It's getting tiring to know their real feelings and adjust yourself to make them feel good.

I was not born to please them anyway. As long as their little favors can be done, I'm fine with it--no more care anymore.  XD

Wata life, uh? 

The worst thing might happen to me is to lose interest to live.

I don't know. I might just kill myself eventually if that happens. 

random yeah. **** haha!

Yo!

Sometimes, it's good that I left my phone at office.  I'm not tempted to talk to people. Haha.

Now that I have my PS3, surely, I'll be back to my old old self--a gamer! Wahaha! 

Though this is the first time that I am broke and got sick this Christmas, I think everything will be fine. 

God will make a way. Yeah!~ 

De-activated my FB account.  Maybe going back on 2012. 

I got flu. Yeah you already know it.  What's the sense of tellin' this to you.. Haha.

Nyway, it keeps on dripping down. You know what I mean? 

Water therapy is what I need. 

RX's playlist tonight is so good. 

As part of life, there are things that should be left unsaid and at the same time, left undone. 

to-do..to-do-not..to-do..hope so.. XD

Wha-what am I gonna do?

With all these junk, all these junk

Inside my mind?

Nothin'.

It's just..

Effort is really useless. Effort nga naman..

Resources too.

Recycle all the way na naman? Tsktsk. XD

Jigeumeun So Nyu Shi Dae. Appaereodo So Nyu Shi Dae.

Yongwonhi So Nyu Shi Dae. So Nyu Shi Dae, saranghae!!!

-Not between life and death-

Very Short Term Goals (This week):

- Gym later after 9 days of absence (I guess).

- Will received unit tomorrow.

- Gym on 30 'cause it's holiday! Yeah!~ 

Short Term Goals (Dec '11):

- Pay credit line bill using Dec salary.

- Buy SP Concert ticket for Jan '12.

- Will received GG's Japan 1st Concert Tour DVD

Long Term Goals (2012):

- Visit S.Korea.

- Take OCPJP on Jan.

Medium Long Term Goals (2013~):

- Visit another Asisan countries.

- Buy stocks, though small.

Uber Long Term Goals(~):

- Migrate to UK after 2-3 years.

Ginawang To-Do List? 

w-w-what? i don't know!

Yo! 

Had training in SQL for two consecutive days - though it's just a refresher to me. 

Now, another training in PL/SQL. It's a very important refresher 'cause I've already forgotten a lot from my training last Aug 2011. 

Went to gym  last night - 2nd day.

Goin' to APC later for OCPJP Certification review session. 

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Extra: Don't know exactly what I am feeling..  You know what I mean. If not, well, I don't care. Haha. XD