lose interests.. don't know. XD

Anhirap matulog sa current shift ko ngayon.. 

People around me makes me crazy.

How will I get to sleep properly if during the day the chickens kept on singing, uh?

How will I get to sleep properly if people at homie kept on knocking the door, uh?

How will I get to sleep properly if they kept on entering the room then sayin' their speeches, uh?

Not only that, I should wake up in the morning to check out Rain 'cause Rhea didn't even bother to look at it before she goes to school. 

And I should wake up in the morning and in the afternoon to fill my stomach who's about to eat my intestines. 

That's how I get my sleep, putul-putol. 

I think that's why I don't want to talk anymore.

I don't want them to know it too of course.

Nakakatamad na mag-explain at mag-salita.

Nakakatamad na i-defend ang sarili or ipaliwanag ang real intentions.

Nakakapagod... Sayang sa effort at sa time. 

And if I'm in the normal shift, mid-shift and morning shift..

I guess, the result will be the same, nakakatamad parin mag-salita.

Why? After work, people around asks for a lot of things.

Parents ask for favors, work at home.

Siblings tell a lot of stories, which might be deafening to me. 

And ask for their little favors.

To avoid conflicts, as much as possible, I'll just do the things they say.

Or just ignore the nonsense things they say but should show that I'm listening and interested.

And If I know that I'm not in a so well good mood, I just try not to talk. 'Cause I might burst. 

You know what I mean.

People are crazy. It's getting tiring to know their whereabouts. It's getting tiring to know their real feelings and adjust yourself to make them feel good.

I was not born to please them anyway. As long as their little favors can be done, I'm fine with it--no more care anymore.  XD

Wata life, uh? 

The worst thing might happen to me is to lose interest to live.

I don't know. I might just kill myself eventually if that happens. 

wata life.. money + relationships + stuffs + ...etc.

I really don't understand L. Sometime I would want to ask L straight 'bout what's the problem. 

Ask the schedule.

I thought L will show up to get the business L wanted.

But no shadow was seen.

It keeps on repeating.

I even waited for L in Market2x last Nov30.

It's fine to though 'cause we walked around and saw Yuri.

But then, it's someone a pain if I'm going to consider it.

Fortunately, I really don't mind.

'Cause you know, I'm expecting anything now in my life. 

This coming week, if L is going to show up.

I'll just ask my friend to get the business L wanted to hand to me long time ago.

Maybe L just wanted to see my friend and just using me. Haha.

Nyway, I don't mind 'cause I don't care.

It's really obvious since College days. That's why It will not be a shock anymore. 

We went to day to Tiendesitas.

Watched the event of RX Rhythm Street.

Failed to find Ragdoll at Pet Village. 

Maybe I'll be able to have it when I go to other country. 

Went to SM Marikina afterwards.

Saw the 46" TV I would like to buy for our guest room.

I want to get rid of the big stuffs there. 

Of course, I will not tell it to my mom.

'Cause surely, she'll shout at me and scorn at me me. Haha.

I don't care if my mom will get angry at the time I already have that TV. 

Went to MAC store and I would like to buy iPod Nano.

But then, it will be a least priority 'cause I don't have money. 

There's also a bluetooth headphone.

But then, i's gonna be a least priority. 

Bought an external dvd-rom but unfortunately, my installers are gone. 

Thanks for cleaning up my room soooo good. 

Life is really...good.

As time goes by, I'm being careful with my money.

If I held my money tight back on College,

this time, money's gonna be so tight in my hands. Haha. XD

Maybe noone will believe me. Haha. Even myself, I don't. 

But let's just see.