Someone who made me realize some things

I admit, I had mistakes. I eventually said sorry to Cha.

This friend told me things na hindi ko naman nakkwento sa kanya. Maybe because magaling sya makabasa ng tao. And she made me realize some things.

"Di kapa maka-move on sa ex mo."

Yes, hindi pa ko nakaka move-on kay Cha. I don't know how and when. I believe on her so much that I wanted to have an honest conversation with her.

"Hangga't may trust issue ka, hindi ka makakakita ng forever mo."

If I really have trust issues, ba't lagi ako nabubudul budol at naloloko? I believe so much sa goodness ng human beings. I even disregard someone's past when I love someone. Her history will be my lessons to be a better partner for her. At I admit na I plan too much of the future that I don't give any chance to my partner to think and decide on her own life. It was my flaw and my mistake. And I don't want it to happen again if I really wanted to meet my "till death do us part" partner. I've learned that outside our world (romantic relationship), there are other worlds and relationships (friends and family).

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I have already accepted everything. And with His help, I am healing and already moving on. 😊 Naniniwala naman ako na yung taong nakatadhana sakin, kahit saang directions pa kami mapunta, magkikita at magkikita din kami. 

Pero bago yun, kelangan mayaman na ko at may sariling bahay na. At probably, meron na kong 100k spare cash to buy an engagement ring. Haha!

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Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

short story about trust

A short story...

An airplane goin' to San Francisco was experiencing great air turbulence. The passengers started panicking except for a boy who keeps playing his toy plane. 

One man asked the boy, "Hey boy. How come you kept playin' your toy while the rest of the people here are already panicking?"

The boy replied, "My dad is the pilot of this plane." Then went back to his toy.

It just means that whatever happens in our life, we should need to put all our trusts to our Father. God is the pilot of our life. Christ is the cabin crew. And we, are the passengers. Both the pilot and the cabin crew always make sure that we're safe and sound. They only want is the best of our life. Though at times we don't understand what's happenin', we just need to keep on trusting Him and His son. 

I realize this today when we were experience light air turbulence on our way to Manila. I was in a deep thought that I didn't mind the current situation. I was thinkin' if this thought is coming from Him. And I think it was. 

Though most of the times, I am losing the feeling of His love. Or there are times I don't feel any love at all. Thank God that He kept on lookin' upon me. He send messages whenever I was lookin' for answers. 

 

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Life after School's Life?

In the future... (Nyway, these days people talked 'bout marriage en family life. XD)
Don't want to get married for a while.. Or even enter into a relationship. Haha!
Wanted to travel places--'round the Philippines en 'round the world.

How 'bout the "future" partner in life? It'll arrive in time, in God's time.

How 'bout mySmile? It's okay. I guess I'll stop for now. God will give me a hint if I'm already allowed to make a move. But for now, just like what I used to say, I don't wanna push myself to somebody who doesn't like me as a person. You know what I mean? You get friends if you like them. I guess no interest has passed into mySmile's mind to be a friend of mine. Haha! XD

Starting today until I found the job/task God has chosen for me, I'll keep on traveling... Enjoy my life with no worries. Aside from supporting myself, I'll be able to help human kind.
Not quite sure if I already got a trauma from my past. All I can say 'bout it is, I don't wanna remember it forever. Tsktsk. XD

Things I gotta remember:
Materials are not permanent, and so with friends.
+ Love yourself foremost.
+ Love your family. 'Cause they're always there for you.
+ Lastly but most importantly, trust en love Him with all your mind en heart.

Grandia Vrualg
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

not born to fall

I shouldn't have looked on to your multiply and twitter. Though I failed looking at your multiply, I found your twitter. Then the result? I got hurt. :'(

I'm sorry. If only things are just a little bit different. :'(

But what can I do? Just move on.. I don't want to see the earthly you anymore. If I could only fast forward the time, where all of my dreams are realizing. Afterwards, I'll die. Then I'll be with my beloved Fudy who is now in heaven.

Why am I always experiencing 'unrequited love' in my life? Just what I thought so.. I was not born to fall in love. I was born to be with my family-with my parents forever. And of course, with Him especially. 

If I could just be like Ang in Avatar, who is not destined to marry and have his own family because of a mission. I guess, that's how my life is too.

I shouldn't be discouraged for 'greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.' Thank you God. You are the only one left who I can rely on. In you, 'unrequited love' doesn't ever exist. Thank you for your everlasting love. I love you so much above all else.

To my beloved Fudy and By: Still, your happiness is also my happiness. Though it hurts a lot, I can take it as long as you always smile and are happy. :)

 

Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

A Lot of True Friends/ =D

Haha! You know what, narealize ko na I got a lot of friends who are true. Bukod sa mga ka-close ko na sumusuporta at nagpapasaya sakin, esp. this time, andyan nagpaparamdam ang mga hindi ko ganun ka-close - kahit mga acquaintances lang.

They just give advise or lines out of no where. These simple lines are obvious na sumusuporta sakin. Mga simpleng pag-pm lang sakin sa YM, na-eentertain nila ako. At napaparealize nila sakin na, 'it's ok. andito naman kami eh.' Haha! I'm so lucky! =D

Love you friends! =D :)) XD