wata life.. hate it.. really. +_+

Waaah! I really don't know now what to do in my life now! 

First of, I thought of bein' independent by findin' and rentin' my own apartment/room. But I don't want to rent or pay for my own home forever.  I can pay a monthly instalment for a condo while I live on my own. HOWEVER, how supposed my monthly salary be able to pay all of those things uh? Apartment monthly rent at the same time paying of a condo?!  Yeah life.. 

I really don't know now.. 

Bein' heartbroken is already given. No need to think 'bout it. 

Since I was born, I'm already a loser in that field. 

Why thought of livin' on my own? 

Since I started working, mom doesn't give me anymore. 

The only free things now are my shelter and foods when I'm at home. Besides that, nothin' more.

What's more? 

She told us when I was still at school that when we start workin', she will not ask for money from us.

But now, she does. However, I don't mind if I give all my salary 'cause I'm livin' in her house.

But then, she sometimes complains 'bout her cars' gas everytime she sends me to work using them.

Though I told her many times that I can commute on my own, she insists on bringin' me to work using her vehicles.

What am I supposed to do? Uh?  Stacked in these conversations. 

Aside from work I do at office,  there are other works I'm doin' at home.

Photocopying and some paper works 'bout my parents' businesses if there are.

I don't mind doin' all of these things. 

But I decided to start teachin' my youngest sibling 'bout the technical stuff in the computer.

So that when I'm not around, she can do it for our parents. 

What's more? 

They all think that when you start workin', you're already rich. 

Do you think my monthly salary is really that big? Uh?

Do think that if I live on my own, I can live a well-of life?

No, it's not. You're really wrong 'bout it.

My monthly salary is just enough for a single person to live accordingly.

So don't ask for more. Yeah life.. 

Sick en tired.. Life is really useless without its meaning.

And why every meaning should involve money? Uh? 

I really don't understand. 

Human beings are naturally greedy and selfish. 

My hatred to them is coming back little by little.

Hope it's not.. 

sick or what?

Yeah. I feel like I am not feeling well; even my body is in good condition (lack of sleep though). 

Guess emotionally and mentally. 

(Pause. Got to continue in reviewing the notes I've made)

If I won't be able to see the Girls' Generation, I guess the right time hasn't come yet.

Simple Plan.? HE gave me another chance (3rd chance I supposed) to see them on January. 

I'm already working but I still think sometimes like a kid because of my "non-sense" spending.  What am I supposed goin' to do, uh? I think for this span of time, I lost my purpose for a while. Tsktsk. 

So Nyu Shi Dae and Simple Plan are my human savior. God gave them to me. 

Gotta work now. (A lot of things I need to study.) Sayonara!~ 

sick en tired

I don't wanna exert anymore effort. If you don't want, then well, bye! I already got tired of always pushing people around.  Tsktsk. XD

Just gotta need to sit back and relax while working hard. Gotta fulfill all my dreams. Luck will just come by itself. 

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

wata day... busy en hectic.. -_-" yet still fun! =D

March 6 (Sunday)
Went to my big sis' homie in Taguig before headin' back to my dorm. At last, we see each other again-and so with my nephews. =D Sis gave me a headphone and earings. Haha! Didn't expect it. Never asked it neither. If I did, guess that was too long ago-and it's 'bout the headphone. XD

March 7 (Monday)
Didn't remember much.. But hectic I know. -_-" XD


March 8 (Tuesday)
Neither this day. Hahaha! But busy 'bout studies. -_- XD


March 9 (Wednesday)
Little bit of panic mode 'cause of QUALITY. Made it at the caf together wit other classmates. XD


March 10 (Thursday)
Highlight: Have eaten at Max wit Tal, Pudhang, and Anatots. Hahaha!
Should have reported in ITRENDS.
Didn't expect that I'll be with Anatots reportin' for our ENTREPS. -_-" Tsktsk. XD


March 11 (Friday)
Highlight: Bonding at Jobi with the five of us. Haha.
Then eaten at Select for a while. Then headed to Caf and should have eaten Leche Flan. XD


News 'bout Japan strike me after mom told us 'bout what had happened earlier this day, 'round 3pm. Hopin' dat they have prepared 'bout it and no one has died. God has a purpose why it has happened. And let's just believe in Him and trust Him completely. :)


It's already March 12. We have just finished our meeting for our Java project. -_-" Time to sleep 'cause I'll be waking up early. *Sigh*


Oyasumi nasai!

Vita500 (3/10/'11)

Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

so tired, so busy, en so expired..

Jan. 15.. Don't remember anythin'!! :)) Guess, it's all about KPop. XD

Jan. 16.. Went to mom's friends burial wit mom en rhea.

Jan. 17.. Dad's birthday. Haven't any gift. XD
Sched wat?

Jan. 18.. Sched sucks!
Saw mySmile. So? Smile doesn't mind.

Jan. 19.. Fixed da sched en attended da first Java Training meeting.
Tired. Tried to sleep but couldn't. Too many whirling thoughts in my head.

Help me oh God! I wanna take a leave, 3days is cool.

Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

don't tell me who i should be...

wat's up?

this f*** world doesn't understand someone like me! uh?

yeah. wat'u expect? people are all the same.

there's no one you can trust to. so wat? leave 'em!

i don't know. i don't want to repeat it again. yeah. history repeats itself.

i rebelled wen i was in 4th year HS. then now? goin' to rebel again?
i'm already at the critical stage of my college and of my life.
after this, there's no turnin' back.

just forget this s*** earthlings that keeps on draggin' me down.
they're never be there forever anyway. then wat? leave 'em!

leave all these ditch people. just keep on movin'.
pretend. that's where i'm best at.

-SP's Jump-

Jump! (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about tomorrow (Jump!)
I just don't care tonight
I just wanna jump (Jump!)
Don't wanna think about my sorrow
Let's go
Forget your problems
I just wanna jump

Grandia Yrekcah en Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Enough for your crap!

Ok, that's it! If I didn't check your fb, I won't know it at all.

You didn't block me anymore, but you deleted me.

Nice! Thank you!

Ok, enough! I had enough! Too much for this. 

You've changed, then I was changed too.

Fuck off! (Sorry for the word God)

Hope you are not bitter or something.

Ok, bye! 

I don't want to enter into relationship anymore. And if I will, I will make sure you'll know our wedding day. Me and my next significant other in a church. Then you'll regret all the things you've done to me. 

I will change. I will strive hard to earn a lot. 

I will work hard to make you see that you won't able to reach me again. 

'Cause I was once down and you just kept stepping on me.

You'll see, in time, you'll look on me.

You've made great space. Then I'll cut the bridge and have greater and more space. 

Get rid of you completely! Don't know if I will still do what I'm planning after grad. 

But I guess, it's enough. It's too much for me.

God, help me. Let me know if it's already enough.

Tired of everything.

I'm a new person now.

I'll prove to all the people who stepped down on me that they need to work hard for them to be able reach me.

Tired of this fucking sick of yours. (Sorry again Lord)

I tried to befriended you. I even love you and avoid the possibilities that you'll find it out.

But you broke it.

Now, all of you crap people.

Let's see who you are after ten to twenty years.

Yeah. Looks can deceive. Then you'll be deceived with my looks.

Yeah, I look like an innocent small kid. But you'll see, in time.

P.S. Never be friendly with you fellas:  4th year HS classmates except my DFA dudes.

 

Grandia en Yrekcah Leikeze Van Helsing

Grand M0nde

Earth, Solar System