wata life.. hate it.. really. +_+

Waaah! I really don't know now what to do in my life now! 

First of, I thought of bein' independent by findin' and rentin' my own apartment/room. But I don't want to rent or pay for my own home forever.  I can pay a monthly instalment for a condo while I live on my own. HOWEVER, how supposed my monthly salary be able to pay all of those things uh? Apartment monthly rent at the same time paying of a condo?!  Yeah life.. 

I really don't know now.. 

Bein' heartbroken is already given. No need to think 'bout it. 

Since I was born, I'm already a loser in that field. 

Why thought of livin' on my own? 

Since I started working, mom doesn't give me anymore. 

The only free things now are my shelter and foods when I'm at home. Besides that, nothin' more.

What's more? 

She told us when I was still at school that when we start workin', she will not ask for money from us.

But now, she does. However, I don't mind if I give all my salary 'cause I'm livin' in her house.

But then, she sometimes complains 'bout her cars' gas everytime she sends me to work using them.

Though I told her many times that I can commute on my own, she insists on bringin' me to work using her vehicles.

What am I supposed to do? Uh?  Stacked in these conversations. 

Aside from work I do at office,  there are other works I'm doin' at home.

Photocopying and some paper works 'bout my parents' businesses if there are.

I don't mind doin' all of these things. 

But I decided to start teachin' my youngest sibling 'bout the technical stuff in the computer.

So that when I'm not around, she can do it for our parents. 

What's more? 

They all think that when you start workin', you're already rich. 

Do you think my monthly salary is really that big? Uh?

Do think that if I live on my own, I can live a well-of life?

No, it's not. You're really wrong 'bout it.

My monthly salary is just enough for a single person to live accordingly.

So don't ask for more. Yeah life.. 

Sick en tired.. Life is really useless without its meaning.

And why every meaning should involve money? Uh? 

I really don't understand. 

Human beings are naturally greedy and selfish. 

My hatred to them is coming back little by little.

Hope it's not..