Anhirap matulog sa current shift ko ngayon.. 
People around me makes me crazy.
How will I get to sleep properly if during the day the chickens kept on singing, uh?
How will I get to sleep properly if people at homie kept on knocking the door, uh?
How will I get to sleep properly if they kept on entering the room then sayin' their speeches, uh?
Not only that, I should wake up in the morning to check out Rain 'cause Rhea didn't even bother to look at it before she goes to school. 
And I should wake up in the morning and in the afternoon to fill my stomach who's about to eat my intestines. 
That's how I get my sleep, putul-putol. 
I think that's why I don't want to talk anymore.
I don't want them to know it too of course.
Nakakatamad na mag-explain at mag-salita.
Nakakatamad na i-defend ang sarili or ipaliwanag ang real intentions.
Nakakapagod... Sayang sa effort at sa time. 
And if I'm in the normal shift, mid-shift and morning shift..
I guess, the result will be the same, nakakatamad parin mag-salita.
Why? After work, people around asks for a lot of things.
Parents ask for favors, work at home.
Siblings tell a lot of stories, which might be deafening to me. 
And ask for their little favors.
To avoid conflicts, as much as possible, I'll just do the things they say.
Or just ignore the nonsense things they say but should show that I'm listening and interested.
And If I know that I'm not in a so well good mood, I just try not to talk. 'Cause I might burst. 
You know what I mean.
People are crazy. It's getting tiring to know their whereabouts. It's getting tiring to know their real feelings and adjust yourself to make them feel good.
I was not born to please them anyway. As long as their little favors can be done, I'm fine with it--no more care anymore. 
XD
XDWata life, uh?
The worst thing might happen to me is to lose interest to live.
I don't know. I might just kill myself eventually if that happens. 
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