Last Friday of the Month

I think it will be the last time I will ask you out. Tinatamad na ko magyaya. Lagi nalang nirereject. 😅

After August 20 nalang kita yayayain ulit. Or after September na? 😆
Di ko narin alam kung magpprogress pa kung ano meron satin. Kasi you always seem uninterested. Lagi ako nangangapa sa mood mo. 😅😆 Tuwing late night lang ikaw may time at nasa mood makipag usap sakin.
Kaya tama lang na hindi muna kita seryosohin. At tama lang na nilet go kita. At tama lang na usap usap lang ako ngayon sa mga tao.

Actually, wala naman problema sakin maging single ng another 5 years. Nagawa ko naman to dati. 😆

As long as maging okay na okay na ko at stable na financially, saka ko na iisipin ang love life. Kusa naman darating yan pag ready na talaga ko. And only God know. Kaya ngayon, friends friends lang muna.

Siguro babalik lang muna ko sa bahay namin. At least dun, pede ko makipag halubilo sa mga tao pag naghahanap ako ng kausap. And I don't have to wait for your replies. Haha.

Let Your will Thy be done God. Please let me find the woman of my prayers - good communicator, marunong sa pera, marunong magluto, loyal, faithful, will accept for who I am, will support me, mahilig sa pet. 😁 Amen!

For you Anj! 😐

Haay. Ba't ba ko naging pokmaru? 😆 I thought chasing people are already long gone? 😆 Need to wake up now from this madness! Haha.

Prayer

God,

This is so sad. It's already my opportunity to study Masters next year. But I think you have different plans for me oh God.

Not only I no longer be able to move into different house, I should carefully start monitoring my expenditures from now on so that the risk of paying the banks' CA won't be coming from my own pocket. 😞

Life. I should find other different source of income so that I can still support my parents' medical.

God, please direct me to new doors of opportunities. Please help me find it.

I life up everything unto you. Thank you Jesus and the Holy Spirit for always being there for me.

I love you. And I pray all these things in the mighty name of my lord Jesus Christ, amen!

Thank you for her

Dear God,

Please let me know the soonest if Anj is the right woman for me. As much as I would like her to be my woman, I'm still not sure how she really see me. She said she's still undecided. But she never told me the reason why. She only mentioned that it's giving her second thoughts and it confuses her. Should I continue pursuing a person who's not sure if she's already ready to be in a relationship? I don't want to waste each other's time that's why I want to make sure that she's the one for me.

In the end, thank you for letting me meet her. I was really hoping that she'll reciprocate my love in the near future.

Thank you Jesus and the Holy Spirit for always keeping her safe.

Amen!

Anj

We're not officially together that's why I don't have any rights to call her and ask where she's at already.

I should forget the idea of her being my future girlfriend/partner. I should concentrate on myself. She may be just one of the distractions.

Or am I too hasty?

Deadz

Pag walang commitment, ang bilis ko mabored. 😅

What is this game called?

Ange is playing with my heart. 😅
Or is the problem with me?

It's too early to fall in love. I just like her. Then it's not mandatory for her to like me back.
Should I be the one to pursue her?
Why am I expecting anything from her? Whether she likes me back or not, I should not be expecting anything in return.
I was the one who first showed the motive.
I should keep my low position in approaching her. Ask her permission for anything I will do.

Alright. No expectations. Just keep the low profile. Ask her permission about anything.
Never ask personal things/stuff. Know my limit as a friend.

Thanks for the reminder Rove!

HAHAHA

Sorry naman 😆

A fling and my prayers

Di ko deserve to.
Di ko deserve si Ange.
Di ko deserve ang taong pang free time lang ako.
Di ko deserve magmakaawa ng oras nya.
Di ko deserve ipagpilitan sarili ko sa taong pinagtatabuyan ako.

I don't deserve this kind of relationship.

God, if Ange is not the woman I am praying for, please take her away from my life. I don't want to invest my time and feelings to the person that's not right for me.

God, please introduce me to the woman that's destined for me. A woman I can settle down with. A woman who is a good cook, good with financials and money, with integrity, faithful and loyal, a good communicator, someone who will not force me to be someone I am not (e.g. introvert to extrovert), someone I can easily connect with and talk to for hours with meaningful and enjoyable conversations, Ms Independent, and most of all, God-fearing.

So help me God. Amen.

My prayers

God,

First of all, thank you for answering my prayers 3 years ago. I prayed for a partner who's loyal, faithful, good cook, may paninindigan, magaling sa pera, and wife material. You gave Carol to me.

But I missed something in my prayers. the most essential thing I didn't realize is very important not until recently - to be a good communicator - since I myself is not good enough also. 😅

I failed my last relationship because of poor communications. Problems were left unresolved. They piled up then one day, just exploded.

Now, I don't know if I am still qualified to ask for my destined partner or person.

God, please let me meet this time my destined partner or person. I can't afford any heartbreaks anymore. I'm praying for my future woman who is wife material, faithful, loyal, love me unconditionally, whom I'll love unconditionally, good communicator where we can talk and discuss even the most sensitive or serious topics about us, good cook, good with financials/money, pet lover, and very patient.

These may be a lot but I pray for this woman to be the one I'll settle down with until my last breath in this life.

Thank you God and I love you.