from SG, finally goin' home...

Yeah! It's been long days since I posted my last entry here. Tomorrow night, I'll be goin' back to my homeland. I'll start anew again. (and again) I thought goin' here in SG to work means a new beginning to me. But I think it's not the case. I guess God really has another plan for me. He just wanted me to take a long vacation and enjoy myself before the real hardships come. I don't know. These 3mos made me wretched. I hope the four years College education I had can't be affected by 3mos of slacking. 

Though, I still enjoyed stayin' here in SG. I got part-time job for a week. I experienced other cultures (I had culture shocked at first). At first, I thought it's really hard workin' abroad--away from your love ones though I'm with my few relatives (sister,  cousin, and brother-in-law). But then, I get to realize that the adventures in life I'm lookin' out are somethin' like this. Oh! I guess God wanted me to experience the difference of adventures in nature tripping and adventures in a foreign land. Now I know. And it's makin' me excited. I don't wanna give up myself for bein' an adventurer. Sooner or later, I'll experience workin' abroad with no one's with me.

God, let your will Thy be done. Please give me knowledge and wisdom as I make decisions in life which are according to Your will. Let your Holy Spirit guide me all throughout my life's undertakings. Oh Jesus, please be my shepherd. Please make me your sheep, 'cause I'm really a lost one. Oh Father, My God, please lighten my way as your Holy Spirit guides me; and as Jesus Christ lead my way. Thank your for everything. I love you so much!

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Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

It's my special day!

Yo!

Today is my birthday. My 20th birthday. But for me, I’m still 14 years old. Hahaha!

A lot of people greeted me. From my close friends in text messages up to friends in Facebook. I could say that they’re a lot. Because they are the people I get in touch with from Elementary, Highschool, and even now in College. You know me, aside from Academics; I joined clubs, activities, etc. That’s why aside from my classmates, I’ve know a lot like schoolmates. And aside from co-bracket ages, siblings of my close friends also greeted me. And so with Rhea’s friends and few of our relatives. But most of them compromises my friends I met at schools.

I’m so thankful for them. I didn’t expect that someone or a lot will greet me because aside from very close friends, I’m only expecting for three to four special people who will greet me with special care to my special day.

They are:
-Mom
-Dad
-Ate Deth
-and Fudy

Hahaha. Unfortunately, three of them didn’t greeted me directly. Only Ate Deth greeted me directly in Facebook. My parents, don’t know. I think they are so busy. Or their minds are so preoccupied with business matters. Haha! However, they are still the one who made possible the party yesterday. I think they just don’t say it but put it into actions. =D

Fudy on the other side, I shouldn’t be expecting it anymore I know. I don’t know. I just felt this morning that Fudy’s greeting was the first message my cellphone will get. But when I looked on it, no new messages found. Haha! Until the clock struck at around 10am, greetings from different people kept on coming to my phone.

I guess, bumalik lang yung ako na dati for a moment. Fudy as the first person in my Inbox, while my parents crushed my roomie’s door just to kiss, hug, and greet me. Hahaha! XD

But most of all, though the special people I’m expecting failed to do what I’m expecting, God made a way to put a smile and laugh on my face. I didn’t expect it really that my Facebook will be flooded with greetings.

I love you God! You’re the only one for me. Thank you for the last 20 years I’m living here on earth. I pray that you will continually guide and use me for the remaining days of my life. Use me according to your will and purpose for me. I love you Jesus! You’ re the only bestfriend I have ever have. You and God continually loving me with unfailing love. I’m so thankful I met you both. Forever oh God, I will lift up your name on high. Please don’t leave go astray ever again. Please give me knowledge and wisdom as I make good decision in my life. Fill up my heart with your love so that I could love other people too. Cleanse my thoughts and heart from any worldly things.
Thank you again. I love you so much my Father and Bestfriend! =D

Grandia Yrekcah Leikeze
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Nothing is impossible with Him. =D

Prayers according to Thy will

Yo!

I was late again this morning. For about 30mins. Hahaha! XD

One thing I have remember about the Daily Hope(1) I have read this morning is praying according to His will.
I remember that I used to pray until just recently is this:

"Oh God, please. Please take back Fudy in my life. I can wait until the end of time. This is my fourth wish after my three wishes about my purpose and my family. If You'll give Fudy to me, that will be the greatest gift I'll ever receive from my entire life. I will no longer ask for any gifts for my birthdays or any special occasions. I want to spend the rest of my life with Fudy. Oh God please."

But I added,

"That's only my wish and my prayer. But still, let Your will Thy be done. 'Cause you know the best for all of us. In Jesus name, Amen!"

Yeah. Morally speaking, it's not right to pray or ask for a person to be yours. They're still human beings like me. And they also have the rights to pray and ask for their own. What if that person you have been praying is also praying for other someone in their life?

Though I stop praying about my wish about Fudy, still in the back of my thought, even 1 percent is wanting it. Yet, let His will Thy be done. I know that He has a wonderful plan for each and everyone of us. Though He gives us free will, He's still in control.

That's why, I already given up everything to Him. (Still, I don't want to fall ever again. Unless He told me to. XD)

See ya buddy! =D

Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

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(1)http://allpoetry.com/journal/133607-Your-prayers-have-an-impact-by-Rick-Warren