God,
Okay sana si Carol. In fact, I can live with her forever if it's just the two of us without any family members from both sides in our home. But if I have to lose myself just to please her family members and kiss their asses just like how she wants me to be, I can't. Kung pilitin nya ko or irequire nya ko hindi maging ako para lang masatisfy ang kagustuhan nyang makisama o halubilo (kahit maging plastic na) sa family members nya, hindi nalang. I am an introvert. I have my personal space. I have my moods if I want to socialize of not. Same goes kung pano di ko sya pilitin makihalubilo sa family ko. I respect her decisions and even not try to be a pushover.
Well, maliban sa external concern na to about family, wala naman issue kay Carol as herself. Oh! Probably yung anger management nya and not taking care of her health very well. Aside from these two, okay naman si Carol.
If only we had the time to heal individually bago kami nagkabalikan, hindi sana darating sa ganito na napagod nalang.
Let Your Will Thy be done. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.
My prayers…
-Rove
Friday, May 31, 2024
Thursday, May 30, 2024
Just some thoughts…
Bigla ko lang naalala. Well, it doesn't matter naman. Let's just treat this as lesson learned.
You mention na "hindi naman tayo ganito dati".
Dati andun tayo sa bahay namin. You were okay pero in reality hindi at ramdam ko yun. At sinabi ko sa sarili ko after my previous ex na never ko na ititira sa bahay ang partner ko dahil mahirap sa part nya at sa part ko - dalawang masters sinusunod ko (nanay ko at partner ko).
Nagbukod tayo sa Valenzuela. Okay naman tayo dun kahit naghirap tayo sa una.
It starts falling apart nung lumipat tayo dito with your sister. I thought mas okay kasama family mo kesa family ko. I thought okay lang makisama sa family mo. At requirement mo yan sakin. Pero parang same lang pala. You always side with your family than me. Hindi ko rin pede iblame ang family mo dahil alam ko magccause na naman ng away. Dahil alam ko na mas priority mo sila kesa sakin o satin. Kaya hinayaan ko nalang kasi kasalanan ko naman dahil ako naginvite sa kapatid mo. π
Narealize ko lang lahat ng to pagkalipas ng ilang buwan na sinabi ko kay Cha na kasama natin kapatid mo sa bahay. Kaya pala ganun nalang sya magreact. Maling mali talaga na may kasamang family member sa bahay lalo na pag may own family kana… π Kasi pag may mali, di macoconfront ng partner mo ang family mo. Tapos lagi ka magsiside sa family mo kesa sa partner mo.
Yun lang. These are just one of the reasons why I got tired of our relationship. π
You mention na "hindi naman tayo ganito dati".
Dati andun tayo sa bahay namin. You were okay pero in reality hindi at ramdam ko yun. At sinabi ko sa sarili ko after my previous ex na never ko na ititira sa bahay ang partner ko dahil mahirap sa part nya at sa part ko - dalawang masters sinusunod ko (nanay ko at partner ko).
Nagbukod tayo sa Valenzuela. Okay naman tayo dun kahit naghirap tayo sa una.
It starts falling apart nung lumipat tayo dito with your sister. I thought mas okay kasama family mo kesa family ko. I thought okay lang makisama sa family mo. At requirement mo yan sakin. Pero parang same lang pala. You always side with your family than me. Hindi ko rin pede iblame ang family mo dahil alam ko magccause na naman ng away. Dahil alam ko na mas priority mo sila kesa sakin o satin. Kaya hinayaan ko nalang kasi kasalanan ko naman dahil ako naginvite sa kapatid mo. π
Narealize ko lang lahat ng to pagkalipas ng ilang buwan na sinabi ko kay Cha na kasama natin kapatid mo sa bahay. Kaya pala ganun nalang sya magreact. Maling mali talaga na may kasamang family member sa bahay lalo na pag may own family kana… π Kasi pag may mali, di macoconfront ng partner mo ang family mo. Tapos lagi ka magsiside sa family mo kesa sa partner mo.
Yun lang. These are just one of the reasons why I got tired of our relationship. π
Monday, May 27, 2024
What’s wrong with me?
Why am I like this?
What's wrong with me?
It seems like my day is never complete without talking to her.
Where in fact it's obvious that she doesn't like me.
Why am I like this?
What's wrong with me?
I shouldn't have used my heart again.
It's all blunder and stupid choices.
Mind, please take over completely.
No more crushes, no more flings.
I don't wanna fall in love ever again.
Why am I like this?
What's wrong with me?
On June, it's gonna be a deal breaker.
If she shows up, there'a a chance we can continue our friendship.
If she doesn't, then it's the end of this foolishness I have. I gotta stop messing around and leave too.
Gotta concentrate on my goals and no more lovelife.
Life is meant to be enjoyed and not mourn.
Remember, losing one friend doesn't mean the end of me. There are still more than 7 billion people in the world. I will still be able to meet people with great personality. π
Probably God has different plans for both of you. Trust Him.
——
On the side, should I get a St Benedict medallion to give to her? I'll try to get one on Sunday. If ever she'll not show up on the agreed date, it might mean that the medallion is meant to be given to another person.
What's wrong with me?
It seems like my day is never complete without talking to her.
Where in fact it's obvious that she doesn't like me.
Why am I like this?
What's wrong with me?
I shouldn't have used my heart again.
It's all blunder and stupid choices.
Mind, please take over completely.
No more crushes, no more flings.
I don't wanna fall in love ever again.
Why am I like this?
What's wrong with me?
On June, it's gonna be a deal breaker.
If she shows up, there'a a chance we can continue our friendship.
If she doesn't, then it's the end of this foolishness I have. I gotta stop messing around and leave too.
Gotta concentrate on my goals and no more lovelife.
Life is meant to be enjoyed and not mourn.
Remember, losing one friend doesn't mean the end of me. There are still more than 7 billion people in the world. I will still be able to meet people with great personality. π
Probably God has different plans for both of you. Trust Him.
——
On the side, should I get a St Benedict medallion to give to her? I'll try to get one on Sunday. If ever she'll not show up on the agreed date, it might mean that the medallion is meant to be given to another person.
Relationships are complicated
Go with the flow nalang ako…
I dont wanna push anything anymore…
If I dont love Carol romantically anymore..
It doesn't matter.. I should tell her the soonest.
My new friend is only a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Just someone to hang out with. No strings attach.
Will there be a chance to love Carol romantically again? Maybe when she starts listening to me and starts taking care of herself. You will see it from outside if you are taking care of yourself inside.
There's nothing I can do to take care of someone if she herself doesn't care about her health.
All I know now is.. I just hang out with friends/colleagues. Then when at home, play games or watch Netflix.
I should start planning my solo travel to Japan next year. π Well, I should also start planning and taking care of things as I embrace my singlehood in the future. I'll stay single until I find someone I like that will like me too. π Or better yet, not to love anymore. Haha.
Relationships are complicated and very tiring. It's not my cup of tea.
I dont wanna push anything anymore…
If I dont love Carol romantically anymore..
It doesn't matter.. I should tell her the soonest.
My new friend is only a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Just someone to hang out with. No strings attach.
Will there be a chance to love Carol romantically again? Maybe when she starts listening to me and starts taking care of herself. You will see it from outside if you are taking care of yourself inside.
There's nothing I can do to take care of someone if she herself doesn't care about her health.
All I know now is.. I just hang out with friends/colleagues. Then when at home, play games or watch Netflix.
I should start planning my solo travel to Japan next year. π Well, I should also start planning and taking care of things as I embrace my singlehood in the future. I'll stay single until I find someone I like that will like me too. π Or better yet, not to love anymore. Haha.
Relationships are complicated and very tiring. It's not my cup of tea.
Relationships are complicated
Go with the flow nalang ako…
I dont wanna push anything anymore…
If I dont love Carol romantically anymore..
It doesn't matter.. I should tell her the soonest.
My new friend is only a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Just someone to hang out with. No strings attach.
Will there be a chance to love Carol romantically again? Maybe when she starts listening to me and starts taking care of herself. You will see it from outside if you are taking care of yourself inside.
There's nothing I can do to take care of someone if she herself doesn't care about her health.
All I know now is.. I just hang out with friends/colleagues. Then when at home, play games or watch Netflix.
I should start planning my solo travel to Japan next year. π Well, I should also start planning and taking care of things as I embrace my singlehood in the future. I'll stay single until I find someone I like that will like me too. π Or better yet, not to love anymore. Haha.
Relationships are complicated and very tiring. It's not my cup of tea.
I dont wanna push anything anymore…
If I dont love Carol romantically anymore..
It doesn't matter.. I should tell her the soonest.
My new friend is only a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Just someone to hang out with. No strings attach.
Will there be a chance to love Carol romantically again? Maybe when she starts listening to me and starts taking care of herself. You will see it from outside if you are taking care of yourself inside.
There's nothing I can do to take care of someone if she herself doesn't care about her health.
All I know now is.. I just hang out with friends/colleagues. Then when at home, play games or watch Netflix.
I should start planning my solo travel to Japan next year. π Well, I should also start planning and taking care of things as I embrace my singlehood in the future. I'll stay single until I find someone I like that will like me too. π Or better yet, not to love anymore. Haha.
Relationships are complicated and very tiring. It's not my cup of tea.
Monday, May 20, 2024
…
Sabi nga nila, "Be with someone who will bring out the best in you and not the worst in you." π
This applies to all kinds of relationships - friendship, parent-child, siblings, cousins, husband-wife, etc.
This is why we cut people off if it's not healthy nor benefiting to both parties anymore.
——
Let's take a rest for now, re-energize, have some "me" or alone time, have some life check, etc. Put oneself first. And pray.
This applies to all kinds of relationships - friendship, parent-child, siblings, cousins, husband-wife, etc.
This is why we cut people off if it's not healthy nor benefiting to both parties anymore.
——
Let's take a rest for now, re-energize, have some "me" or alone time, have some life check, etc. Put oneself first. And pray.
FYI
I believe in therapy and I have access to psychologist or counselor whenever I want to.
Hope you also believe in mental health issues and therapy. It's okay to seek help, nothing wrong with it.
What my brain says…
You know what, if you want me to kiss your family's asses, go find someone else.
Why not go back to your exes, introduce them to your family? Baka sakali mas tumagal pa kayo sa 6 years kapag nalaman nila gaano kaperpekto pamilya mo at gaano kayo kaclose ng mga kapatid mo. πOr why not marry your family? Tutal you always put them first before your "own/new family". π
I don't kiss my family's asses. I even defy them. So don't expect me to please someone else's family.
Nagtitiis lang ako simula nagkabalikan tayo. Hindi mo ba napansin kung bakit tuwing magkakaroon tayo ng argument, di na kita pinapatulan? Kasi sinusubukan ko pigilan na maging halimaw kana naman na nagwawala, nagsisigaw na tila ikaw lang tao sa mundo, at binabato o sinisira lahat ng makita sa paligid. Kung wala kang hiya o pake, pwes ako ang nahihiya sa ginagawa mo. Hindi mo kaya makipagusap ng mahinahon. Gusto mo lagi na para kang King Kong na hindi nagiisip, magawa lang yung gusto mo gawin na pagsisigaw at pagwawala.
Tapos sasabihin mo na never ka nagkamali? Na lahat ng sinasabi at actions mo ay tama? Ang taas ng tingin mo masyado sa sarili mo. Masyado kang perpekto. Maghanap kana lang ng iba na kasing perpekto mo. π
Sinabi pa ng tatay ko na simula nakilala kita, nagiba na ugali ko. But I don't fucking care! Sinagot ko lang sya kung ano alam kong tama. Sila Rhea at Ate ko? Di nila gusto yung pagwawala mo kapag nagagalit ka. Pero I still defend you till now na "stressed ka lang at sumasabog lang. Na di mo lang alam ginagawa mo. Na di ka naman masamang tao". Nanay ko lang at si Venice natitira na okay na okay sayo. At ayaw kong masira maganda mong image nila sayo. Well, pake mo ba sa magulo kong pamilya, diba? πDi gaya sayo na sobrang perpekto na di mo magawa sagutin o patulan tatay mo, ibackstab nanay mo, etc. Di kami plastic gaya mo. At lalong di ko kaya makipagplastikan gaya ng ginagawa mo. Kaya siguro di rin ako sumama sa Marinduque. Bukod sa work concern, ayaw ko rin makipagplastikan gaya ng ginagawa mo sa side ng nanay mo. π At syempre, sa reason na either hindi ako "trophy jowa" or maiwasan na ipahiya mo gaya ng pagpapahiya mo sakin nun sa pamilya ng tatay mo. π (Well di mo alam yan. Nevermind. It doesn't matter.)
Anyway, nawa'y makatagpo ka ng taong perpekto na babagay sayo. Yung hindi ka magwawala pag nagagalit, hindi ka historical, yung kaya halikan asses ng pamilya mo para sayo, at yung kaya mo kalimutan lahat ng nakaraan para sa present at future nyo.
At never forget, mabait ka naman. Kaya nga binalikan kita dahil yan sabi ng heart ko. Mabuti kang tao, sinto sinto lang minsan. Haha. Kaya for sure, makakahanap ka ng tao na can keep up with all your antics. π
P.S. Utak ko na nagsasalita dito. Tinago ko na puso ko. This time, di kona hahayaan puso ko magdecide dahil wala syang utak at lagi nya lang sinasaktan sarili nya.
P.P.S. These are all just my opinions and my thoughts. I know I'm not perfect and I know my flaws. You couldn't compromise for my behaviors and your reactions. I'm already tired compromising for your actions and reactions. And this is where conflict starts.
Why not go back to your exes, introduce them to your family? Baka sakali mas tumagal pa kayo sa 6 years kapag nalaman nila gaano kaperpekto pamilya mo at gaano kayo kaclose ng mga kapatid mo. πOr why not marry your family? Tutal you always put them first before your "own/new family". π
I don't kiss my family's asses. I even defy them. So don't expect me to please someone else's family.
Nagtitiis lang ako simula nagkabalikan tayo. Hindi mo ba napansin kung bakit tuwing magkakaroon tayo ng argument, di na kita pinapatulan? Kasi sinusubukan ko pigilan na maging halimaw kana naman na nagwawala, nagsisigaw na tila ikaw lang tao sa mundo, at binabato o sinisira lahat ng makita sa paligid. Kung wala kang hiya o pake, pwes ako ang nahihiya sa ginagawa mo. Hindi mo kaya makipagusap ng mahinahon. Gusto mo lagi na para kang King Kong na hindi nagiisip, magawa lang yung gusto mo gawin na pagsisigaw at pagwawala.
Tapos sasabihin mo na never ka nagkamali? Na lahat ng sinasabi at actions mo ay tama? Ang taas ng tingin mo masyado sa sarili mo. Masyado kang perpekto. Maghanap kana lang ng iba na kasing perpekto mo. π
Sinabi pa ng tatay ko na simula nakilala kita, nagiba na ugali ko. But I don't fucking care! Sinagot ko lang sya kung ano alam kong tama. Sila Rhea at Ate ko? Di nila gusto yung pagwawala mo kapag nagagalit ka. Pero I still defend you till now na "stressed ka lang at sumasabog lang. Na di mo lang alam ginagawa mo. Na di ka naman masamang tao". Nanay ko lang at si Venice natitira na okay na okay sayo. At ayaw kong masira maganda mong image nila sayo. Well, pake mo ba sa magulo kong pamilya, diba? πDi gaya sayo na sobrang perpekto na di mo magawa sagutin o patulan tatay mo, ibackstab nanay mo, etc. Di kami plastic gaya mo. At lalong di ko kaya makipagplastikan gaya ng ginagawa mo. Kaya siguro di rin ako sumama sa Marinduque. Bukod sa work concern, ayaw ko rin makipagplastikan gaya ng ginagawa mo sa side ng nanay mo. π At syempre, sa reason na either hindi ako "trophy jowa" or maiwasan na ipahiya mo gaya ng pagpapahiya mo sakin nun sa pamilya ng tatay mo. π (Well di mo alam yan. Nevermind. It doesn't matter.)
Anyway, nawa'y makatagpo ka ng taong perpekto na babagay sayo. Yung hindi ka magwawala pag nagagalit, hindi ka historical, yung kaya halikan asses ng pamilya mo para sayo, at yung kaya mo kalimutan lahat ng nakaraan para sa present at future nyo.
At never forget, mabait ka naman. Kaya nga binalikan kita dahil yan sabi ng heart ko. Mabuti kang tao, sinto sinto lang minsan. Haha. Kaya for sure, makakahanap ka ng tao na can keep up with all your antics. π
P.S. Utak ko na nagsasalita dito. Tinago ko na puso ko. This time, di kona hahayaan puso ko magdecide dahil wala syang utak at lagi nya lang sinasaktan sarili nya.
P.P.S. These are all just my opinions and my thoughts. I know I'm not perfect and I know my flaws. You couldn't compromise for my behaviors and your reactions. I'm already tired compromising for your actions and reactions. And this is where conflict starts.
Sunday, May 19, 2024
Move on
Sometimes I miss a hug.
But I don't want to be a martyr anymore. I know it's part of moving on to miss the person you loved. Your heart aches but you gotta be strong.
You don't need anyone. You'll be happy as single. You already did it once and I know you can do it again. You have your furbabies. They'll fill you with unconditional love.
God is love. But please God let me feel it again.
But I don't want to be a martyr anymore. I know it's part of moving on to miss the person you loved. Your heart aches but you gotta be strong.
You don't need anyone. You'll be happy as single. You already did it once and I know you can do it again. You have your furbabies. They'll fill you with unconditional love.
God is love. But please God let me feel it again.
Hypocrite!
Eh di sana pinakilala mo mga ex mo sa pamilya mo. Eh di sana nalaman nya gaano kaperpekto pamilya mo at gaano kayo kaclose ng mga kapatid mo. Malay mo mas matagal pa sana kayo sa 6 years.
Hypocrite! Plastic! Wag ako Carol.
You're the worst!
Hypocrite! Plastic! Wag ako Carol.
You're the worst!
Get out of my life!
I hate you C!
I shouldn't have given you another chance. I shouldn't have given us another chance. You're still the same. You're the worst person!
I hate you! I despise you!
I shouldn't have given you another chance. I shouldn't have given us another chance. You're still the same. You're the worst person!
I hate you! I despise you!
No more lovelife. The end.
I can celebrate my birthday alone. π In fact, I'm not alone. I'll be with my God.
God, please don't let me fall in love ever again to a human being. I don't want to be in a romantic relationship anymore.
God, please don't let me fall in love ever again to a human being. I don't want to be in a romantic relationship anymore.
Travel Bucketlist
Please I would like to solo travel
1. New Zealand
2. Iceland
3. Greenland
4. Switzerland
5. Lapland
In my 30s, I need to hassle. Get passive income. Earn atleast 500k/month. Then before 40s, I'll retire. I'll start traveling the world.
So help me God…
1. New Zealand
2. Iceland
3. Greenland
4. Switzerland
5. Lapland
In my 30s, I need to hassle. Get passive income. Earn atleast 500k/month. Then before 40s, I'll retire. I'll start traveling the world.
So help me God…
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