not born to fall

I shouldn't have looked on to your multiply and twitter. Though I failed looking at your multiply, I found your twitter. Then the result? I got hurt. :'(

I'm sorry. If only things are just a little bit different. :'(

But what can I do? Just move on.. I don't want to see the earthly you anymore. If I could only fast forward the time, where all of my dreams are realizing. Afterwards, I'll die. Then I'll be with my beloved Fudy who is now in heaven.

Why am I always experiencing 'unrequited love' in my life? Just what I thought so.. I was not born to fall in love. I was born to be with my family-with my parents forever. And of course, with Him especially. 

If I could just be like Ang in Avatar, who is not destined to marry and have his own family because of a mission. I guess, that's how my life is too.

I shouldn't be discouraged for 'greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.' Thank you God. You are the only one left who I can rely on. In you, 'unrequited love' doesn't ever exist. Thank you for your everlasting love. I love you so much above all else.

To my beloved Fudy and By: Still, your happiness is also my happiness. Though it hurts a lot, I can take it as long as you always smile and are happy. :)

 

Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

Why o why

It's hard to still love someone who doesn't have any feelings for you anymore. *Sigh* I guess it's because of His love. Oh my, oh my~   Leikeze Van Helsing Grand M0nde Earth, Solar System

Yop! Wat's up?

Hey!

I'm already in my Internship2. Sooner, I'll be graduating. Haha! So excited! XD

These past few days (since Fudy left), I spent my time in my AllPoetry account. Haha! I seldom now opening my FB and YM, don't know. Guess, nothing is important out there. Hahaha! I learn a lot in my AllPoetry. I spent too my time, when I'm at office, in Yahoo Mail. Hahahaha! XD

However, these past few days, I avoid these pages (FB, AllPoetry, YM) because I'm going through Fasting. I'm also not eating dinner. Then why am I fasting? It's because I'm asking for something. I'm asking Him to heal our (I and Fudy) broken heart and mind completely.

Then, during weekends, I frequently go out-with family or rhea and michael. Haha! Kids are still fun-though the shallowest people on Earth. Hahaha! XD

I and Rhea have more time bonding. Haha! I and my mom too! Haha! I also always fancy Aaron-my niece. Hahaha!

Many times, though I'm busy working, my mind is clouded with the thoughts and memories of Fudy. *Sigh* But thank God, DailyHope and BibleGateway are always in my inbox.

Ok, time to go buddy!