An 'eh' to a busy mind

Aish! I was and am really busy with my reviews that I couldn't afford to think other things even the New Years celebration. But out of nowhere, the memories of 3 years ago sometimes show up. Eh?

Jan 2. 0_0 so help me God. To God be the glory! :D

BITX Christmas Celeb - foods and fun!

Today was a very fun day. :D It was our team, BITX, Christmas party. Though it's not extravagant, we enjoyed the games and LOTS of yummy foods. The party was potluck that's why there were home-made best recipes.

Our manager visited us and joined us in the food and first game. J-Ops also joined for food and had very fun two (Guesstures and Heads Up) games. Yeah, they won in the 2 games. Haha. Forgot to take pictures during games. #fail But it'll be forever in my heart and mind. I'm gonna miss my team, BITX, other team, JOps, and the whole GWEB.

How I wish this is already Friday cause it really feels like one. Haha.

8 things to do everyday that'll make you happier

8 things to do everyday that'll make you happier:
1. Pull someone's hair
2. Slap someone's face
3. Punch someone's face
4. Kick someone's ass
5. Slash someone's neck
6. Stab someone's back
7. Shot someone's head
8. And the worst of all, vomit someone's face.

#randomsillyfunnythoughts

I need clones!!!

Sasabog na utak ko!!! Literally Oo. -_- The pain is now different from the usual headaches I had.

Daming iniisip - as usual. Kelan ba nawalan ako ng iniisip? XD Minus the work, masyado ko maraming non-work... Nabasasan na nga dahil hindi natuloy yung YEP performance namin.. Tapos narin yung tower-wide Christmas party. So I assume 2 more Christmas parties to be organized. Esp I'm always the game master. *sigh* Nyway, I love it! Haha.

Good thing done narin yung last 2 Out-of-towns ko. Whew. Challenging gumawa ng itinerary esp my always goal is cheaper cost but more activities.

The remaining challenging task for me now is 'finish review before the end of Dec and take up exam at month end while doing Christmas-related stuffs'. Then will be able to submit my application on or before Jan 3. Oh God help me. I need more knowledge and wisdom. And also much energy and strength.

I also need to have time to prepare the gifts for the kids, family members, Y_Me?, Da Farm Animals, and BITX.

Time Management. Waaah! I wanna enter to the room of Picolo - where time become much slower.

Love oneself to be able to love others

There's a reason for everything.

Now I know why God put me around with people who has the same age as mine - and are mostly single. This is for me to enjoy life to the fullest and be able to love myself more than anyone else. :D

And I love humanity esp my countrymen. I'll work hard to be of a help. This is my calling. :)

*sigh*

So tired.. Hopefully I can finish/solve you off quickly. Or else, I might give up and just leave it out in the middle. -_-

I love my countrymen more than my life

Sige lang.. Dagdagan nyo pa HPXT sa buhay ko.. Okay lang.. Basta ayaw ko lang nakikitang nahihirapan ang mga kababayan ko sa Visayas. I hate to see them suffering. It's better that I am the who's suffering and not them.!

Take away all of my good health and give it to them instead. Take away all of my wealth and give it to them instead.

Please keep them stronger and faithful to you oh God. Give them an honest heart forever and ever.

Amen!

Work vs Study

Mas masarap talaga mag-aral kesa mag-trabaho.. Exams? You just have to bear it once. Work? Live with it! Study? You please yourself. Work? Please everyone!

When I was still a student, I told myself, "I won't be working extra hours for work."

Now that I've started working.. Extra work? Who cares! I love what I am doing!

But now that you're in the company for more than a year, more work..more responsibilities..more pressures..

The new app is okay. The thing that I just don't like about it are the pressures from managers - especially from other team's. Hate it!! 

We all know that the transition is not yet complete nor went smoothly. But we have to deal with it. Life is always like that. Expect the unexpected things.

For the past days, when Oct was coming to an end, I started becoming hectic and uber busy. Now, how many percent of free Rove is there? 10%? 5% 

Argh!!! If only I win millions in a lottery, I can now start building my business - don't have to be employed nor get stress out.

Oh God please help me. Give me more strength, knowledge, wisdom, and patience to go on.. Amen!

Missing baby Raffles

My baby Raffles is missing.. She was missing since this morning.. :'( God, please return my Raffles to me.. I don't know what to do without her.. =(( She's the only one that approaches me whenever I come home from work very late in the evening. And she's the only one I caress right after I entered the room. All of the stresses and pressures I may have, she takes it all away.. Raffles!! My baby.. =((((

I pray that whoever gets her will return her to me.. Please take good care of my baby..

Over fatigue - Natural Calamity

Yo! Didn't go to office because I was sick. Flu, the normal sickness. And it's because of over fatigue.

I think I need to get rid one activity from my current lifestyle. I am thinking of telling my co-Groove the I will be quitting to the HP Christmas party's performances. I need time for myself and of course, for my review.

My target date in taking GMAT is on Dec. And I'm not yet at the one-fourth of the book.

On the other side, I'm really concerned to my co-countrymen in Bohol. This is why I donated Php3,000 to GMA Foundation. I know it's not enough. It's just piece of pennies to others. And I know for sure that it can only provide a week of food to 5-6 families.

If only I bet to lottery and won the jackpot, I will donate half of it to Bohol. (Which is impossible because I don't play it. And no luck at all.) Per government, Php7 Billion is the money needed to restore the whole Bohol. Though the government still have savings for it, people who need urgent help are inevitable. Thanks a lot to South Korea for donating $300,000 to Earthquake victims. And also thanks to US Embassy for the $5,000 donation.

I pray that people will stay strong and stay united to have a new life. This is just part of the trials God is giving us.

Note: Soon, Bohol will rise again. I haven't given a chance yet to visit it. :(

23 wonderful years with God

Woaw! Didn't expect anything for my birthday. But it was something to be thankful. :D

All I expect was just an ordinary day with additional food treat to teammates.

But then, lots of friends - from HS to College to work - greeted me on my birthday. Maybe because I wasn't expecting people greeting me - all I think was just my family and few officemates who will greet me. But thanks to FB, friends came to know my birthday. Haha. Even without FB, I got friends who sent me personal messages - some of them didn't greet me in FB. Now, I came to know the few friends I should treasure and value most. :)

Though I didn't receive any material things - do not expect it anyway - I receive lots of love. :)

Mom cooked Carbonara and Shanghai rolls for me to take to office - for my teammates and project team. My younger sister prepared a poster with our pictures and birthday greeting notes. Friends gave me heartfelt and sincere messages.

Thank you God for the love you are giving me. I am receiving them very well thru my family and friends. Thank you God for the 23 years of life you've given me. I experienced lots of things - hardships, enjoyment, sorrows, laughter, etc. And I've learned many life's lesson.

Now, I pray that I'll still be able to share the love you give to me with others as well.

Thank you and I love you God. :) To You Be the Glory!
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Yey! Happy 23rd birthday Rove!

Yeah~ it's my birthday today! Oct 17! Haha. But technically, I'll turned 23 later at 12PM SGT.

Thank you God for the 23 wonderful years. I've seen and experienced lots of things here on Earth. From the slump where I was just dreaming about things till the day I'm finally fulfilling each of them. From the great turbulence life I had to the most comfortable life I had.

Nothing is indeed impossible to you. For the upcoming years you'll give to me, I will continue doing my best and be a servant of your people. I will continue being of a help to every person who needs it.

Thank you for your unending love and wisdom. Thank you for the loving family and friends you've given me. I love you God!

Rove

Solitude

Without solitude, Love will not stay long by your side.

Because Love needs to rest, so that it can journey through the heavens and reveal itself in other forms.

Solitude is not the absence of Love, but its complement.

Solitude is not the absence of company, but the moment when our soul is free to speak to us and help us decide what to do with our life.

In solitude, they will discover the love that might otherwise have arrived unnoticed. In solitude, they will understand and respect the love that left them.

In solitude, they will be able to decide whether it is worth asking that lost love to come back or if they should simply let it go and set off along a new path.

In solitude, they will learn that saying no does not always show a lack of generosity, and that saying yes is not always a virtue.

The Divine Energy is listening to us when we speak to other people, but also when we are still and silent and able to accept solitude as a blessing.

And in that moment, Its light illuminates everything around us and helps us to see that we are necessary, that our presence on Earth makes an immense difference to Its work.

And when we achieve that harmony, we receive more than we asked for.

-Manuscript Found In Accra, Paolo Coelho

Cool JDrama..Chisato-san

Waha! Done watching two (2) episodes of Atashinchi no Danshi. It's one of the best Japanese drama series I've watched so far. :D Though I still want to go for Episode 4, I can't. T_T need to sleep now as I still have a training to attend to tomorrow morning. Uhuhu. Ja na~

Faithfulness and loyalty

Earlier, in a room together with my teammates, they're talking about transferring to other companies with different role in the future.

Then I remembered my past friend, an HR to other company, who told me that they're looking for a developer - the role I used to like. She also added that there are other open job positions.

Another one. An ex-officemate, now in other company, told me that there's an open position in other company with high pay.

For all those things and instances, it never occurred to me to transfer to other company. It feels like I'm already contented with my current company. With the good values and fun environment it has (compared to other companies), I can say that I love what I am doing.

And maybe I'm a loyal kind of person. Once I found the place I trusted with, my loyalty is in that thing.

Again, I know myself. I know that I am a faithful and loyal person. :) As long as you take care of my trust, you have my full support.

Glimpse of the future

For the past few days, I had a glimpse of the future thru my dreams..I think!

Ex-teamlead has set off to US. Ex-bestfriend has new boyfriend. Went back to S.Korea and visited unnie Salona again. Went to Japan with family for a vacation. Went to London twice for family vacation.

Haha! For the first two, I know them for sure. For the travels, *crossed fingers* I hope and I pray. :) Amen!

Sport Competition at weekend

Haha. My 2nd time joining the HP Sports Fest. And joined in Badminton again. But this time, we made it to the semi-finals - though at first we're targeting the 3rd place. :( Sad.. Well then, satisfied that we were included in the best 4 teams. Haha. We didn't expect it of course.

1st place: Red
2nd place: White
3rd place: Black
4th place (though out of ranking): Orange (us!! LOL)

Now, body pain all over. +_+

Thank you God for the opportunity. :) We really enjoyed everything - meet old and new friends. For our talents, To God Be The Glory!!

A quick look at the past

[Done reading Aleph at last! :D]

While doing random browse, happened to saw this.

The last gift I sent to my former bestfriend - before everything went off completely. Not sure if I've noticed the caption long ago. During this day, I was at the Orphanage with my mom, her classmates, and my younger sister, making the kids happy. :)

Blaze of concerns

When I'm about to lose my energy for work and purpose for life, God let me watched the local news.

Because of this, my blood becomes alive again.

War among Filipinos in Zamboanga City, Pork barrel scam among. Politicians, death count because of greedy and hatred is rising, teachers unable to get benefits from local government.. These are just few of the things my country is facing.

My reason flamed up again. I need to do it fast 'cause time is running out. We need change.

Education is the only key for a change. Just like our national hero, Jose Rizal, said, "Ang kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan."

Then I remembered the story my Korean friend told me bout their history when I went to South Korea. She said, South Korea used to be a very poor country - much poorer than Philippines. Their leaders decided to imposed two-child policy for every household. They put much of their budget to Education. No corruption happened. People, including the government, helped each other. Now, their country is becoming popular together with Japan all over the world. It's very long time ago though-decades ago. But she added, "It's not far to happen to Philippines too because you got all the essential resources needed."

Yes, it's not far from happening. If each person will just rid off the greediness from his heart even once and unite for one goal, we can lift our country from poverty and chaos.

I also remembered the story told by the tour guide when I was in Brunei. He said, their country used not to be rich. They even experienced poverty. What people did, 1st class and 2nd class people start donating things to the government - appliances, furnitures, etc. They really helped the government to rise from bankruptcy to help the ordinary people in the country.

(Not sure though if this is in Brunei or Malaysia. Forgot who told me when I went to their country. All I know, this is recent.)

Now, need to complete the things in the present-even small ones-with a touch of excellence.

So help me God.

How complex love is

Yo! Just watched Lovely Complex. It's a Japanese movie.

How I went to it? I just felt like I want to watch a nice JDrama. Then typed in Google Chrome, "nice Japanese drama 2012".

It's good - like every other Japanese comedy-drama-romance movies or series. :) I thought it's a series though. Haha.

Koike Teppei, my HS crush, was the main character. :D He's so cool as ever. Love his fashion really. Haha.

The theme, it's just strike me a little. "Height doesn't matter." My friends used to tease me because of my height. (And I think, up until now -_-)

Nyway, gotta sleep. ;)

I updated my phone to iOS7 by the way. And it's freakin me out. 0_0 Now, I wanted to return to the previous version. T_T It's consuming much battery and I don't like the feel - looks like an Android and Windows 8 combined.

Awesome team planning

I really love team plannings. :) :) :) It really bring me joys whenever your happiness is sitting beside you the whole time. :) :)

Actually, in the moment itself, didn't mind it at all. I was just beginning to absorb the things happened few hours earlier just now. XD

Brought the bag with me because my fellas were going home and not sure if there'll be someone left to care of myTL's stuff.

Though had chance to exchange SMS and calls, didn't had a chance to bid goodbye properly. :( My other fellas told us to dance at the time myTL's going to fetch the bag. Hadn't had a chance to bid goodbye for the weekends. T_T

Nyway, really like the personality. So cute. Haha. Kiddy-like yet still kind.

Happy weekends~!!

P.S. Hopefully, I'll be able to attend to tomorrow's badminton. Uhuhu.

Prayer for the little hectic day

Dear God,

Thank you for today. Though my day a the office is a little bit hectic, I still had fun. :)

I had two meetings - tracker change minimal fix and the innovation.

Then a dance practice. I just went 10:30pm to 12am. Not sure tomorrow as I need to prepare for the LOOP on Friday. And got lots of meetings - from start of shift till end of shift. Haha.

Still, I'm enjoying all of them.

Thank you for the blessings, strengths, and especially for the love.

I love you and goodnight. In the mighty name of my Lord, Savior, and Bestfriend, Jesus Christ. Amen!

I'm sorry but it's already been decided

I have decided. Not offense. I will leave the country once Binay becomes the Philippine president.

McKinley pa nga lang inaagaw na nila from Taguig City. Instead of focusing on the disputes in the west Philippine Islands, ito pa ang pinag-aawayan. Instead of getting the hearts of Muslims in the Mindanao to unify Philippines, ito pa talaga iniintindi. Because of this action, I'm afraid unity will be blur among Filipinos in the future.

My purpose to help my countrymen will still be executed as plan. I will just visit Philippines to build schools in the mountains and remote islands. But business and living a life? I will do my best to have one in the foreign land I'll be at.

I'm sorry Binay. Not unless you or any from your family did something significant, I can't trust to you the lives of my family.

I know how it feels to be a Vice President. I've been there. President always do the things. Leaving you nothing to do anymore. But, I've never asked to be the President after that. As for me, it's better to be of a help while in the lower position. I got a chance to have honest conversations with the members. Knowing what they feel, what they need, what they want, and discussing how to attain them.

To be continued...

Ang ayaw at gusto

Tagalog Post:

Una sa lahat, hindi kami bagay.

Hindi ko sya type. Mukha, katawan, ugali, etc.

Kung pano sya mamuhay, hindi ko gusto. Masyado sya nahuhumaling sa expensive foods. Masyado sya magastos. Kelangan mo ng maraming pera para ilabas sya. Ang gusto ko, matipid. As much as possible, kumakain ng sulit na food. Cheaper but substantial.

Hindi sya vocal. Hindi sya honest sa sarili nya. Ang gusto ko, honest sa nararamdaman nya at sasabihin nya ito no matter what. Gusto ko vocal.

Hindi sya straight to the point. Maraming paliguy ligoy. Gusto ko, diretso.

Ang pangarap ko, someone who's honest sa nararamdaman nya. Someone who's true sa sarili nya. Someone who's straightforward. Someone who's masiyahin at palangiti. Someone who strives hard for our betterment. Someone who will not leave me in the air unprepared.

every goodbye comes a new hello

Yeah. I think I now know the reason why God put me out of that role. For me to have spare time.

And I guess also that my overtime at work is getting frequent.

I've got lots of activities - including extra curricular. Even weekends, I go out. I got no time anymore for myself.

Or I should say, time for Him. 

I miss doing reflections. And I guess I don't know anymore how to do it.

Because of the confusion I had with the removal of role decision, I get a change to pray and look at my current life.

There are positive things about this.

First, extra time for myself. Time to study. Time to reflect.

Second, maybe because God has prepared an even more important or greater thing for me. I should be prepared for this.

I should be thankful about this decision because my burden of approaching a person to dismissed this was removed. Haha.

And yeah, I'm thankful about this.

God is helping me out to say goodbye little by little; and say hello little by little.

To God be the Glory!

Will be having fun now, doing life's reflections. 

Pagkasawa, thing I don't wanna experience

Now.. I'm afraid I now feel the "pagkasawa" towards my current work. It feels like there's no something new anymore. Worst, I feel like I'm no longer needed. Na-oOP na. -_- XD

Need a rotation maybe? Guess so. New apps, new processes, new teammates, new environment, etc.

I'm gonna ask my manager in our next one-on-one. Let's try..

Sudden shock

Shocking news. I was removed from my role of being a Dev Lead.

Yeah I do understand why my team lead decided for this. And I am thankful about it because she initiated it before I was about to tell her. I know I wasn't able to do my role for 2-3 months because of my app's decommissioning. And during those times, I thought to myself that I will ask my team lead to hand me any dev project to lead after my decommissioning project. But already forgotten it when I'm about to finish my decom proj.

I'm also thankful partly because my loads have lessen, atleast. I was thinking about Ops and so with processes. And sometimes, I didn't know now how to differentiate one task from the other.

However, the thing that I didn't like is its sudden announcement to the team without telling me beforehand. Or maybe, I was given already a hint but didn't take notice of it because of my "busy-ness". Even though I'm already expecting it, it has still given me a sudden shock. Good thing I was able to react nicely in a split of second - though it's obvious I was in shock. Haha.

Oh well, expect the unexpected. And what's left for me is to just pray. :) Every little thing has its own reason. And He got a big real reason. Even though I don't know it. Every goodbye is a new hello. ;)

To God be the glory!

Practices, Stories, and Movies

Really had very long days.. Since Friday night.

Watched Turbo at Market!(2x) wid my sister. my teammate joined us and treated us. I wasn't able to attend to his despidida party last Thurs cause of shift. That's why it's his reason to treat me and my sis.

Sat was a very tiring day. Badminton practice was cancelled though I woke up early and while was already on my way to the venue. Practiced dancing from 2pm till 7pm. If I'm not mistaken, we were able to memorize four (4) choreographies. Heck! It's just not my body alone but my whole brain. +_+ need to be alert and should be able to memorize the steps easily.

At home, watched Running Man while crunching some McDo icecream and fries wid sis.

Sunday. Whole body is really aching. Can't move freely. in pain all over. And just stayed at home. Watched few movies. (Also watched few topics of Jessica Soho.) First is Amazing Spiderman, then Koukou ____, and lastly, The Life of Pi.

About to sleep after the last movie, but got some hangover wid the Life of Pi. I am usually like this. Usually after watchin a movie, I can go to sleep right away especially when I'm tired. There's something about the movie. It's amazing and creepy at the same time. Anyhow, I can't forget the things I've seen in the movie. It's great.

Oyasumi~

Mini surprise bday event

Alright! Last week's birthday surprise is successful. :) It was Thurs and we prepared much.

Oh! Forgot the BubbleTea of Den. Haha! Maybe on Thurs I can ask the assignee. ;D

Had a difficulty setting up the event because the other celebrant was on a different shift.

In the end, we had managed to pull it twice. (There are two celebrants by the way) Thanks to the cooperation of the team though we lived on different shifts. ;)

Yesterday was our former TL's original birthday. Just greeted with a message.

So sick

Sick since Thurs morning. Was on half day SL last Thurs and whole day SL yesterday.

Went to The Medical City Ortigas to have a check-up. Also took blood test just to he sure that I don't have Dengue.

Little bit sad. Wasn't able to see properly myTL for this whole week because of my absence. :(

Was supposed to be the host for the monthly meeting held yesterday. Too bad I wasn't able to do what I though of doing. ;)

Another sad thing. Wasn't able to dance early this day 'cause I have to rest. I just went to office to watch them.

An addition, the Avilon Zoo trip was cancelled. It's supposed to be tomorrow, July 14.

Because of this freakin sickness, lots of important activities are cancelled or postponed. -_- it's never be fun to get unwell. Hate it!

Nyway, got to rest and..prepare for tomorrow.

Lord, please cast away my illness right now. And let me get well. I don't want to extend this till Monday. I still have things to do at work. Thank you very much. And amen! :)

News I found

Last night, around 11pm, I had a merienda wid my co-shift and myTL. Yeah we talked and chatted anythin' under da sun. It was fun!

Da highlight is, I won't able to hang out wid myTL anymore.. :|

July is da last month of her stay here. She'll be flying to Texas for a business trip and be back maybe after a year.

Worst thing, maybe June is my last month in da company. My target to attend school is next school year, Aug 2014.

Same plan. But.. If myTL comes back before my last day, and if God permit it, I'll tell her that I look her up during my stay in HP. And will thank her for all da things she has done. But if our lives don't cross anymore, well, God wanted it to be that way. :)
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Need to get serious wid my reviews now. Local news are getting worst. I need to do somehow about it. It will be after I get back to PH after MBA and earn enough from abroad.

I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.

Busy day at MOA

This day?

AWESOME.

Though it's a very busy day, it's an uber great one. :))

Have met different people. People I don't know in person. I finally talked with them face-to-face. I also saw my old College classmate and old friend back in 1st year. XD

Had a chance to manage a team/committee for a one day event.

Another chance to eat a lot? =))

Top billed expenses to my postpaid plan. T_T made many calls and SMS that's why.. Uhuhu..

And lastly but not the least, had many calls with Denise!! Waaah!! Denise called me number of times on my phone especially when inside the cinema. XD I didn't took notice of it at first; but on the deep side of it, I was over joyous wid the closeness. :"> Haha! Oh well.

Love dis busy day. Though had little pressure. Haha!

Thanks a lot God for the success of our Coffee Talk and Movie Night. Thanks for the people who lend their helping hands. If it's not cause of them, this event won't be possible. Thanks for the energy, patience, and love. ^_^ Love you God! In Jesus name, amen!!

Random Thoughts: Ideal

Ideal gal:
- Emma Watson
- Rhian Ramos
- Karylle
- Yuri during Run Devil Run, The Boys, and I Got A Boy
- Yoona during The Boys and I Got A Boy
- Yui Aragaki aka Gakky during My Boss My Hero

Ideal guy:
- Jesse McCartney during Beautiful Soul
- Myungsoo aka L of Infinite
- Hoya of Infinite
- Aaron Carter during I Got A Crush On You
- Koike Teppei during Gokusen 2
- Jang Geun Suk during Love Rain
- Yang YoSeob / Lee GiKwang of Beast

I miss my TL

Halo halo na. It's rainy season but halo halo na thoughts ko.

I hope hindi galit or nagtatampo sakin si TL. Haaay. Feeling ko naman! Hahaha! I saw TL from afar, from the opposite side, going to the meeting room. Pero nagpanggap ako na hindi ko siya nakita. That I am near sighted. At first, I was not sure but nung we got near to each other, it's obvious na kilala ko siya.

If only you know how I really feel. Denise. Just like what I first said, as long as nasa HP pa ko, you're the only person I will like the most.

Matagal narin kita hindi nakikita. And malaman ko lang na malapit ka lang..my heart starts beating faster. I feel tense for some reason. And I get panicked when you message me.

Please let me be your fan till we separate our ways. And let this be unknown forever.

Emotion help from gud people

I want to thank Tal, Pudhang, Ghie, JC, and my Ate for lending me money.

It's not just about financial help but also emotional help. I've never thought that they will lend me. Hindi ko kasi ugali mangutang. As much as possible, yaw ko magkaroon ng debt to anyone. I'm afraid of debt. *_*

But still, I want to thank them with all my heart - also for the prayers.

Love you God.

-Rove

Wata stupidity..!

Yey! Nabunutan na ko ng tinik. (Never thought that it's the reason why my heart was heavy since the other day.) Though I was cheated by group of people from Sunnyside Pretoria South Africa with $637, I've learned my lessons.

It was funny that I was so stupid enough not to notice or search about it over the internet - where I usually do. I trusted people so much. It just means that I was so overwhelmed with different stuffs in life recently (family, work, etc).

I'll just think that the money is for the needy. "Everything has its own reasons." And even I don't know them, I trust God.

And maybe, the money is for the poor kids in South Africa. Just like what I've seen in movies. Like the thief archery in cartoons? Maybe..

God is filling up my thoughts with good things right now, since the time I've learned the truth. And I thank my friends for the prayers.

Aside from 'it might be for the poor kids', I am lucky enough that they only got Php26,885 from me. Unlike the Filipinos I saw over the news. They were cheated with millions of money. Moreover, the cheater or fraud people are also Filipinos.

Trust.. It's the only thing you need to take care of. Money and material things are nothing, but not "trust". When you are cheated, you'll get hurt. Not just with the material things but with the 'trust' you gave.

I also had a mistake. I should have given the money to my mother in the first place. But I kept thinking that I will be able to help her more when I get to sell my PS3.

Well.. It has already happened. And I don't want my family to know this. I want to still the confidence they have on me. I'm the eldest and I have a responsibility over them. I don't want them to know my stupidity. Haha.

Smile. Laugh. And I love you God. In Jesus name, amen!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him and He will make your path straight."

-Rove

Trust and Goodness in Humanity

Oh God. Please help me believe that there's still goodness in the heart of the humanity. I'm afraid that I'm losing trust wid them.

I know money is the source of all evil. And because of this my trust to people are starting to fade away.

Please oh God and Jesus Christ. Help me to keep calm.

"Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

I am a person who doesn't worry much about da future because I trust Him 200%. I still trust him now; but because my problem involves large amount of money, I forget that He's there always ready to help me.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight."

God, please let your will Thy be done. Help me. My problem is not just about money but also trust issue.

I pray that my prayers will reach the heaven. In Jesus name, I say. Amen.

Pasty?

"The more you dwell in the past, the more you won't be able to meet the person of your life."

True true true.. But there isn't any.

Btw, already unfriended my past and also put my Twitter to private.

"I don't burn bridges. I just abandon it."

It's a must for me. To forget every lie I was told of.

A cute fan?

Haha! Wat can I do? Kung sobra ako natuwa at kinilig kanina? :)) It's been sooo long since da last time I saw DV. And sa di inaasahang pangyayari, nakasalubong ko pa siya sa isang narrow hallway. Papasok palang siya office; and I was going to da other building. Got no choice but to act fine - just said hi and smiled. XD

I missed DV. ~_~ Anyway, I'll still be her fan till da day I leave da company.

Random Pics

While browsing for the pictures in FB...

April 26. Wid one of da people I most like in HP. :D

Philippines, da country I cherish.

I love Philippines. It's not only because I was born here but I also chose to. I love its nature, places, and its people.

But how will I can continue to live here if its people itself doesn't show any care or love to their country?

I really love this country that's why I really want to help its people. But please. Please help yourself too people.

I don't want to reach the time where I will have no choice but to leave this country.

Mystery

Simple and mysterious. You draw me in. A close book that sparks my curiosity. I wanna get to know you.

-no twitter
-very seldom post to FB
-dont have blog (??)
-counted pics in FB
-unchanging profile pic in FB
-dont have other accounts in social sites (??)

LR's Last Responsibility

Is there a material where I can know how she felt from da day she broke up with me till now? So that I'll know how to reconcile with her when I meet her one day.

Even though 3 years have already passed, she still has a small place in my heart. And for some reason, I feel that I still have a responsibility to her.

If my memory won't fail me, I promised her that I will take care of her forever (though we all know that forever is just a myth). But now that we're gone, the least that I can do is to find her a partner who will take care of her heart.

I know myself more than anyone. I am a loyal and faithful person. And I only like/love one person at a time.

She was my first serious relationship and first love. That's why even though I have a crush now, she's still kinda special. The only way to completely diminish this feeling is for her to have a new lover.

The moment I get to know that the person I like/love is now in a relationship, suddenly, all the feelings have gone. And the only thought that's left is, "Make sure that you won't hurt her, or else, I'll kill ya."

I also remember the phrase I told her. "When you reach the age of 30 and you're still single, I'm gonna marry you."
Though it's just thru a message and I was still immature back then, I can't forget this. I am person with one word. And I'm working really hard for this.

I know that it's impossible, especially when the feelings are not mutual. This is the main reason why I should find her a new partner (ASAP) that will love and take care of her dearly.

-LR

HangOver wid TL

Don't wanna think bout dis family anymore. Ur voice will never heard nor take head anyway.

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If only I have da confidence, I will tell to my TL how much I feel. Daisuki desu. TL is one of the people I value da most now. :)

Thank you for letting me see you smile, laugh, and even sleep for 12 hours. ~_~

-urFollower

Whole day trip wid my TL

Thanks a lot sa pagsama. Dumating din ang panahon na pinakahihintay kong makasama ka sa isang trip. At sa wakas, natupad din! You don't know how happy I am today. :">

Whole day trip palang to, how much more yung 4-day trip? Uber excited na sa Nov~ Looking forward to that day. ^_^

And again, thank you very much. :)

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Heart speaks?

"Don't leave important words unsaid." From Manuscript of Acra.

Guess it's the 3rd time I'm seeing this quote posted by Paulo Coelho on his FB.

What you want me to do? Tell "I love you" to someone?


Paulo also mentioned about 'waiting'. He said, "Sometimes you need a dose of craziness to take action than just waiting." It's not the exact one but looks something like this.

I'm already full of it. Been doing this long ago. But what happened? Always been turned down. Now, I just prefer waiting while doing my thing.

I was also told, "Do your thing and I will do mine." Not sure why I can still remember this line and how this line was said to me. It's been more than 2 years and a half and this line has still an impact. Haha.

On the other side, I wanna meet you. Not sure if you're the same person I've been literally dreaming of frequently. But there's only one thing I know, that when I meet you, I want to take care of you. :)

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"It's more than just a feeling"

"Love is more than just a feeling."

But for me, it doesn't go like this. For me, love is just a feeling.

Maybe. Why I'm not ready yet to love again is because of the past I can remember sometimes. Maybe. When I remember them, my heart seems like throbbing. Maybe. I can still see them clearly everytime I close my eyes. Maybe. I still have the so-called love? Maybe. Or just a feeling of love? Maybe.

I really don't understand love. I felt like I am just a mere puppet. A puppet of this world.

Love is more than just a feeling. But it doesn't feel like one. Love is more of just a feeling.

Quiet time wid buddies

For a few hours, I felt an escape. An escape where I don't have to tell all of what happened to me - good or bad - and exactly what will happen to me in da future.

Just watching movies quietly with them is already fulfilling. It's a time I missed. Time where we just have to sit quietly next with each other and feel the story. I love Y_Me?! :)

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Groovin to da beat

Meralco Gig was finally over! Yey~ Big win for us! Haha.

Our last whole weekends (sat and sun) were dedicated for Groove. Love them! They're great people. I can finally say that I'm confident to share part of my life to them. :)

Thank you God our guesting was a success - including the whole Pink Toes recital. :D Kids were so cute. People were so kind. :D

Thanks a lot for the talent you've given us. We're goin to continue in nurturin them and sharing them to others.
Please bless Groove with more upcoming activities. :)

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Get ready for dis Lenten Season

Tomorrow is our trip to Palawan. Lookin' forward to the El Nido adventure.

Demo, my stomach started to go insane this day. -_- Already took medicines. Hopefully tomorrow, I can travel wid ease. ^_^

God, please bless our trip. I wanna enjoy my lookng weekends~ Thanks a lot. ~_~

Lenten Season = Christmas Season 'cause of foods. XD

World Travels. Let's go~!!!

I wanna travel the world and see the beauty of this creation~!!! Of course, I took pride if I get it from my own pocket. :D

Upcoming Challenge: Go to 2 countries at one travel. Prospects countries are Singapore-Malaysia and Sabah-Brunei.

Short Term Challenge: Go to 3 countries at one travel. My prospects are Vietnam, Cambodia, and Thailand. ~_~ And the recommended time span is 3 weeks or 15 days. :D yeah~!!!

Average Term Challenge: Travel the whole Russia via train. Recommended time span is 2-3 weeks? (Just read it from My Aleph of Paulo Coelho)

Long Term Challenge: Travel the whole Europe, major and minor cities, in 2 months. :D

Other visit wishes:
- Japan: to see the cherry blossoms ^_^
- Rio de Janiero: experience the festivals ^_^
- South Africa: to teach the kids and share part of my life ~_~
- Antartica, North or South Pole: to see the lights! ~_~

Rove

Doushiyou... Let Your will Thy be done.

Wat am i gonna do.. -_- doushiyou.. eotteokhae.. *sigh*
Let you will Thy be done, Oh God.

I always think that anytime soon, I'll be laid off from work. I can't imagine myself working on da same field forever.

Then wat should i do.. Worries.. Anxious.. Oh God, kayo na po bahala. My Lord Jesus, please always be with me. Though it's me who seems like going far, please forgive me.

Haaaay.. Kayo na po talaga bahala God. I'll just do my best and watever things you give to me, I'll do them wid hardwork. :D

My miserable life...

Wat da heck! Pagkamalaman pa kong kumikita ng bigtime.. -_- Wat I'm already paying monthly: my postpaid plan (around 2k), internet plan, and credit card. I still have a balance of around 9k. It's because of frequently use - plane tickets and groceries. Then she added, "Bayaran mo narin yung isa pang postpaid plan. Kaw na gumamit." Heck! It's my previous plan (500) that supposed to be given to her. "Ibuo mo nalang yang internet." After she upgraded the internet plan by 300 box. My budget to internet is only 1k. Heck! "Magloloan ako ng 250k, ikaw na magbayad ng monthly habang andito kapa. Around 13k lang yun. Yun nalang, wag kana magbigay sakin monthly." So pasalamat pa kong mas maliit lang ang gagastusin ko monthly? I am giving 10k monthly to her. I said to myself, "Sana mawala na ko agad."

Kahit pilitin ko magipon, hindi ko magagawa. It looks like she always wanted to say to me, "Live a boring life and give all your money to me." I'm just 22 years old. I didn't experience going out always when I was still attending school. When i go out, I spend cheaply and go to cheap places. Now that i'm already working, I thought I can now go to places I've never been before and experience the life I've never had before. But I think I can only do these while bearing the pain of being scolded always and the pain of spending for your mom.

She used to tell me when I was still a student, "Pag nagtatrabaho na kayo, hinding hindi kami hihingi ng papa mo." I pasted these words in my mind not until she forcefully asked for money. If I don't give her once, a long essay she made will be followed.

Wat da heck! She's a woman without a word. Since a little kid, I was always telling myself that "I am a person with one word." Nakonsyensya nga ko nung highschool when I told my classmate I'm going to give her the same bag as a gift. She was mesmerized by my green bag. But ngayon, though I can still count in my fingers, marami na kong nabitawan na salita sa ibang tao - the hopes I destroyed. Why hopes? My mom is fond of giving hopeful words samin kahit nung mga bata pa kami. Eh kami namang mga bata, utuuto. Umaasa parin kahit ilan beses na napako mga pangako samin. This is the reason, as much as possible, I don't want to be my mom. I don't want to destroy the hopes of other people. And also the reason I prefer actions than words.

Going back sa gastusin. If the loan will be approved, I'm going to spend around 17k for the loan+internet+postpaid alone. If may balance pa ko sa credit line nun, 3k na sa kanya. Then in the end, wala mapupunta sa savings account ko. *bow* Great! Kill myself now. -_-

The plan of taking a GMAT? It's kinda impossible now. Maybe after two (2) years pa ko makakapagipon. So, makokompleto ko pa yung loan. *Bow* Kill myself now!!!

Take note, I have upcoming trips this year. ElNido this Mar30. For sure, ako gagastos kahit kasama ko nanay ko. SG-KL on June. It's a backpackers adventure. KK-BR on Aug. A trip wid mom. Gastos ko ulit. PP on Nov. Outing wid team. Hindi lang tong mga trips, birthday pa ng bunso kon kapatid. She said, hati daw kami. 10k daw sakin. Watdaheck!!! Nagbirthday nga ko nun, di umabot sa 2k gastos dahil sponsored ng lola ko. Bale all in all, 3-4k lang. Heck!! Kill myself now really!!! Susunod na ko sa nagpakamatay na UP student. Konti nalang. Konting konti nalang talaga,, susunod na talaga ko. *sigh*

So help me God and Christ...

For 8 years...

For 8 years, I've been keeping in myself the true feelings I had for A. But what have you done? You hurt my 1st love. Since A met you, I've accepted the fact that someone else will take care of her. Thru prayers, I was hoping that you will stay by her side forever. But what have you done? I hope this news is just a joke. :|

-LR

Meet you there

Who's the real me? I don't know.. *sigh*

I push people away if they're beginning to be close with me. A slight part of me.

I get attracted to people who show me appreciations and concerns. Yeah, I fall with them if done many times.

I don't wanna fall to people who just show concerns to me. Why am I always mistaking it for something? People are just kind hearted - believe that! Though they have surpassed the barriers you put up, it doesn't mean that they really like you. They don't see you the way you see them.

I don't wanna intimidate people and push them away if they're showing likeness to me. I just wanna show them the real me. If they are turned off, well, it's up to them. Who cares? I don't care.

But then inside, I'm a loner. A kid who is trying to hide his sadness by playing around.

People I started liking don't like me at all. I easily give up. People that like me but I don't really like are not persevering.

What's wrong with me? Can I die now?

I just wanna be happy. Meet the person who will like me for who I am and the person I will like too - a mutual one. Hope to see you soon~ Be patient and wait for me. I'll be waiting for you. :)

Onegai shimasu

To myTL

Why you kept on giving me reasons to like you.. Nande?

Gomen if I'm just mistaking your actions into something else. Wakaranai demo I think I really like people who are thoughtful. And it's because of you.

I don't want to fall for you - especially when I come to know that you're getting married one day. I'm not sure what will become of me.

If you can, onegai shimasu, give me reasons not to like you.

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yourFan

A sad adventurer

I wanna go on adventures.
Attend to all Philippine Festivals. Visit all good nature trip places in the Philippines. Demo... I don't have a company. T_T
Go on adventures alone? Good luck if my parents will permit me. :'(

Haaay...

You you.. Dont know

I like denise but i cant. Doushite? It's because... I just cant.

Trying to ignore things bout denise so as not to hurt myself in the future.

Watever happens...lets just pretend. Pretend as long as i can.

Happy valentines to everyone. :)

Y_Me.? Time

Tonight, I and Diann had a dinner at 15th flr. Before that, we are having confe chat wid Tal. Haha. Just talked 'bout the Y_Me?'s bonding on Feb 16 and some career related talks. I and Diann were really encouraging Tal to transfer to our company after she has completed her 2 years in her current one.

Back to dinner. Mostly we talked about "LoveLife". She talked 'bout her current fling and also her exes. One ex, according to her, was so irritable. The other one, no news. I know both of them - and so with the current. Haha.

Diann mentioned da person I used to tell her - same org but at different site. I said that I like him but only as a friend. I only look at him as an older brother. (I never had an oppa)

Reminded her again that I'm not yet ready to enter to any relationship. Also, don't want to hurt others and don't want to get hurt. I still have things I wanna do in my life. I want to achieve them before anythin' else - like love life.

Then talked about the mem'ries we had, Y_Me?, every Valentines Day. It's where Diann was always missing in action 'cause she had other dates. Haha. And the practice where every Friday, Y_Me? is going to baywalk: bonding, chat, eat, and watch fireworks.

That's all. Haha. Wata nice bonding I had wid my Y_Me? fellas. :D

Lookin forward on 16. ^_^

Fresh mem'ry of your face

If I only have eyeglasses wid camera, I already have lots of pics of DV. Hahaha! *kilig much* XD

My smile is reaching my ears now. :"> I can remember clearly my crush's face when she has just woke up from a short nap.

Plus! She lent me her usb cord 'cause mine is failing and my phone was in 32% already. (I even gathered all the guts I have just to approach her. XD)

It's just a lil' bit sad 'cause I won't be seeing her tom. Well, there are still more days to come. And I treasure every moment I got and will have in my company.

Mata ne~

I like but..

I wanna do it. Demo, my passion has already gone. Doushiyou... -_- It's an opportunity. Yes, it is. I know. But... Waaaah!!!

(Im talking bout doin innovations here.)

You're cute. ;)

Haha. I thought I'm gonna fall in love. Good thing it's not yet. @_@ Even though, my liking to that person was growing earlier - especially during team meeting. Maybe I'm really mistaking it but waaaah!!! Is she really recognizing me??? 0_0 Do I mean something to her - even a percent? Hahaha! Any percent it is, it doesn't matter. I just like her, that's all.

(Told you, I started liking her when she appreciated me during those times no one's appreciating me. In short, I saw my value in her disguise.)

Earlier, she was like wearing a flight attendant suit - just like GG Air. Anyway, she's cute. :)

A little help is needed...

I should have settled everything earlier. Now, I'm suffering.. Paying things I didn't use. 😔*sigh*

God, please help me now financially. I don't usually ask this for my own. Cause I know money is the root of all evil. But I need it now for good.

I pray all these things in the mighty name of my Lord, Savior, and Shepherd, Jesus Christ. Amen!

My angels without wings, Girls' Generation

Da moment I saw Girls' Generation on stage and hearing 'swoneul malhaeba'.. Don't know but my tears suddenly started dripping out from my eyes. Don't know why. I was just singin and shoutin while wiping my eyes wid my sleeves and hankie. Still, tears kept on coming. But I was not crying, in fact, I was smilin so great. Then I was told by my friend that they are 'tears of joy'. Then I just realized that it might be. If it is, then it will be the very first time in life-to experience 'tears of joy'.

I was not feeling that I'm about to cry. But I guess it's something from within that I kept for so long. The time has come..to see them in person and watch them performing live.

Now it's done. But I am looking forward for their solo concert. ~_~ Then after that, I will now only have one wish left. It is to have a picture taken with them. :)

Then when all the wishes are fulfilled, I can now die peacefully. :)

SoNyuShiDae saranghae...

One Liner

This is the only line I wanted to tell to people that think wrongly. People who think that I like them.

"Sorry. Hindi kita type."

Kinda shy about it though 'cause it sounds a little bit harsh.

Sila GG at Siya

Girls' Generation, matta ne~ I'll be there in a week. ~_~

I'ma chance grabber. That's why just bought the tickets without thinking anymore. Hekhek. XD 😝

Bout my past crushes? They're already part of my past. No chance of turning back. Wakaru? If I talk to them out of nowhere, it's just because of somethin else.

I can only like one person at a time. And you know who's the current. 😉 Now, I don't consider talent anymore. Amazing personality and abilities are something. Most of all, one who appreciates my existence. 😊

One time in my life, I met a person who appreciated me more than I appreciated myself. With the innocence and truthfulness, you can see that it's sincere. ☺

GG=TL

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2013 Goals Reflection

What can I say... I still have no clear goals for 2013. Or I should say, not formally presented them yet.

I know I should start doing my mission now. And the first step is to take MBA at a very good school. I chose London Business School. I think it has a good vision and mission for its students.

But honestly, I have some worries though I have confidence. I know I can do the review well and take up the GMAT with a good score. I know that I can prepare the requirements. However, I'm a little scared. What if I was not admitted? Or if I am, how can I afford the tuition fees if my mom will only help me for the first semester? Even I start saving up now, it couldn't cover half of one semester. Yeah, there are scholarships. But I am a little worried on how I can be considered. The timings and requirements for scholarship application are still unclear to me.

I have confidence but there are still 'what ifs'. *sigh* I know that God and Christ are always there to help me. I know that if I trust them 101%, there shouldn't be any worries. But then, can't help it. I guess it's normal to feel anxious even a little bit - especially when we're talking about serious future here.

Till then, let Your will Thy be done. I will now just do my best for every little thing you're giving to me - except for the SCJP. -_- I really don't like it now. 😒 😝

Oh God and Christ..Please give me a brave heart, a passionate heart, and a calm mind. Amen!