What am I going to do? Keep still my secret and just tell some lies to protect it? How long do I need to suffer just to protect and keep this senseless secret into myself?
As day passes by, my life is getting miserable - I guess, in terms of relationships (general). I hate to think of other people right after I wake up. I want God to be my first thought. I'm always praying to my Father that I need his help to change the way I think and the way I feel.
It causes my heart to bleed everytime I see those kind of situation. Sometimes, I'm wishing that I could meet that person in my dream and talk to that person straight with all honestly as I could. But other last night I had the chance, but still I haven't any guts to talk to that person. I guess, I'll end up to be a loser. I'm a big coward in terms of talking to people personally and straight. Sometimes, I think that I am just a big mass of blockage to the dreams of that person that's why I prefer to be quiet.
Oh! I should now stop these senseless talk! Enough hurt is enough! - lol
See ya!
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