Habang ako'y nagsusulat ngayon, wala na akong kausap. Kakalog-out lang ni Rosy.
B-day ni Reg ngayon, pero sobrang ganda ng b-day gift na natanggap niya mula sa amin. Sobra! As in walang makakapantay sino man!
Nababadtrip ako dahil di ko alam kung sino ang may kasalanan. Sa lahat ng disappointments na naeexperience ko ay sarili ko ang sinisisi ko, pero ngayon, di ko alam! Lagi nalang ba ako? Pagkatapos ng pagkatapos ng school hours, nangyari ang lahat ng ito. Minsan naiisip ko kung hanggang kelan ako makikisama sa kanila. Ang nangyayari ay lumalabo na, parang di na totoo. Kung nagiging totoo man, ay nagiging sobra naman - nung meron ng nasasaktan. Unang beses ko umiyak dahil sa kanila, na hindi naman dapat - I looked stupid! Ngayon, di ko alam kung ano mangyayari sa Saturday. Siguro this is just part of God's trial. I think He's just testing our relationships as close friends. I don't know! I feel so sick! And all this damnation I feel, it swallows me slowly.
When I started to think a little bit mature, I'm wishing that I could have a very close bestfriend from childhood until we'll grow up. And I guess God has already given me one, not from childhood but very close friends. Because of so much blessings, He just didn't given me one but three people. But I'm still hoping that we will be bestfriends until we grow up. Knowing this makes me think that it's so seldom for these kinds of circumstances to happen.
Di ko na alam gagawin ko! Lagi nalang ata ako ang umiintindi dahil satingin ko ay medyo mas mature ang pagiisip ko kesa sa kanila - dahil yun sa mga experiences na naexperience ko na, I guess!
Then early this morning, because I wore a frown face, I think I have ignored one person. And it's makes me guilty afterwards. I'm just glancing at that person. But I guess, it doesn't matter to that person whether I smiled or not. What that person cares? I'm just one of the many people that person has known. I'm no important to that person. I'm just a little mouse in that person's face. And I guess while I'm writing this thing, that person is already sleeping and don't remember any even small thing.
Nobody cares! Only my Father and my Bestfriend know.
P.S. I got a headache the whole day, and a little bit of exhaustion.
Bye! It just pisses me off remembering these things!
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