#Adulting

Seems like I already opened up 80% of my life to ハニー. I said things I've never told anyone from my entire life. 😖

If this is the case, she should be the person I'll end up with. If not, then it should be God's plan. Maybe, she's not the person I was and am praying for. 🙏 But I'm hoping she is since I've already revealed half of my darkest life to her. 😕

This is the first time I felt I really have a true bestfriend. Haha! I have close friends but I only choose what they should know about me. I am always cautious telling stories about my darkest past since I always thought that nobody will understand it. That they will eventually judge me. And that everyone has their own darkest pasts and I don't want to add up to that. But yes, someone listened to it. I'm not sure if ハニー understood it but by just listening to it, it meant a lot to me.

For now, ハニー should know more about herself first. Get to know about herself. Maybe take some more personality tests and how to deal with any kind of situations. Self-help books, I could say. I'm just not sure if she's open with that. Some people find it interesting finding things about themselves by taking tests - like me! It's exciting to know more and more about oneself. And hope she is the same.

Also, would be nice if ハニー will have a diary where she can write her thoughts in a daily basis. That she is free to write whatever her thoughts are - away from judgement and scrutinizing eyes. It's a good tool to release all your emotions and busy thoughts.

For the meantime, I'll just watch from afar. Observe from afar. And be ready in case she needed someone to listen to her. I'll be just a one message away. 😉

My ハニー, がんばって！ 🤟😁