Wat's up today?
Stress. Stress. Stress.
Ayaw ko na magisip.. -_-"
XD Things 'round me kill me.
I was thinkin' 'bout the deadlines in school, the projects, reports, exams..
I was thinkin' 'bout life after grad..
I was thinkin' 'bout mySmile..
I am bound to my responsibilities.. It feels like I am really Ang of Avatar: The AirBender. XD
It feels like Java is the only subject we had. That I eventually forgot the other subjects that were loading up one by one with deadlines.
I like and love mySmile. Yeah, you read it right. I have fallen already to mySmile. BUT I couldn't move. Especially that I couldn't see any interest from mySmile. AND I couldn't move 'cause I am still bound with my responsibilities. I chose these responsibilities b'cause as a human being, I should do these things.
I was thinkin'.. IF mom will really deport me to SG this June, I was wishin' and hopin' that when I come back, I could still see mySmile. And hopin' that mySmile will still be single. Haha! XD That time, I guess, pede ko na siya kareerin. As we all know, my parents are 100% supporting me currently. Without them, I have nothin'. That's why I was keepin' in mind the ROI.
If it's not because of ROI, I might already killed myself long time ago.
XD
A story... real one. Just happened this afternoon, lunch.
Kinikilig ako, honestly. Natutuwa ako, deep inside. Haha! Hindi ko pinahalata dahil di dapat. First of all, dapat ngayon palang ay hindi na ko masyado lumalapit sa mga pips. What I mean is bawasan dahil mahirap na pagnagkaroon ng attachment--kahit sa friendships. Ayaw kong may nalulungkot o nasasaktan sa mga fellas ko esp. when the time has come that we all need to separate. I love these buddies. Haha.
Nyway, back to the story I supposed to tell you. XD
Kami ay nag-lunch sa caf.. We (tal, pudhang, anatots, louga, and I) were seated sa tabi ng activity area (Explorers' Club was promotin' its events). Maingay.. Yeah.. Chit chat.. Kain.. After ko kumain, pahinga.. Waitin' for 12:30pm para umakyat na ng dorm. Alam ko na this day ay naka-sched ang photoshoot ni mySmile.. 10:00 to 11:30am to be exact. Hindi ako stalker. Nakita ko lang sa sched. -_-" Hahaha! XD Una kong sinabi nung nakita ko yung sched ay "Haha. Imposible na makita ko siya. Thank goodness! Nasa Java training pa ko." Hindi ko narin naman na gusto makita siya dahil gusto ko na mag-move on. Pero sa tuwing nakakamove-on na ko, dun naman siya bigla nagpapakita kaya ayun tuloy, bigla bigla nalang bumabalik feelings ko. -_-" XD
Lapit na mag 11:30am.. I was lookin' at the caf's door, watchin' people comin' in and goin' out. Haha. At may thought bigla pumasok sa utak ko, "Andito pa kaya siya sa school.. Haha. Asa! XD" After few minutes, 'round 3-5mins, bigla siya pumasok ng caf's door! Wata! Hahaha! Tiningnan ko siya. Ayos na yun dahil lam ko naman na hindi niya ko makikita na nakatingin sa kanya at hindi rin niya makikita table namin... KASO! Iba ang ngyari! Nung napansin ko na papalapit siya sa area namin. Iniba ko na tingin ko. Tumingin na ko sa harap ko.
Set up ng tables area namin..
Us, table 1. Sa harap namin ay table 2. Sa kanan ng table 2 ay table 3. Nasa table 3 sila Amlehta and da other fwends. Haha.
Sa table 2, napapansin ko na na ang mga tao andun (come and go. one or two people were left) ay mga ka-org ni mySmile. (Sayin' the org's name is prohibited. XD) Then.. ayun!!! Lumapit siya sa table2!!! Nasa harap ko lang na table! AT bago siya magsettle down dun, nakayuko na ko--tryin' to be serious. XD Then amlehta called me. Lam ko kung bakit niya ko tinatawag. Ung unang tawag niya ay di ko pinansin. Tas ayun, ningunguso niya si mySmile. Sabi ko lang thru mouth movements ay "alam ko." Sabay small laugh. Then yuko ulet. XD Then nakikita kong kinakausap na ni Amlehta si mySmile..
At nung tumingin ako saglit sa harap na table (nasa harap ko lang kasi dude! amfanget ng upuan ko. XD), which is table 2, nakaupo na siya! OMG! Alam mo kung san siya nakaupo?? Sa harap ko! Nakaharap siya sakin! As in! We're facin' each other while there are two tables between us. -_- Before siya magsettle down dun, Lou asked me, "Baket ka tinawag ni Amleht?" I just pointed to Lou thru lips. XD Then Lou turned around then laughed! WAT DA LOUGA! Anlakas ng tawa niya na narinig ata ni mySmile. At sabi ni Lou, nung tumingin daw siya, nakita niyang nakatingin si mySmile samin. -_- Langya ka Louga!! XD Ayun nga. Nakaupo siya sa harap ko. Lou was in front of me. Pero my space between her and Tal that's why I could see mySmile thru the space. XD Di ko na siya tinitingan simula nung lumapit siya sa area namin, dahil baka makita niya ko. Mahirap na.. Kahit na sabihin natin na alam naman niya na may gusto ako sa kanya. HAHAHA! XD
Then 12:35pm na. Ana asked me kung akyat naba kami. Then I said yes agad. Haha. Tumayo kami. Dumaan sa gilid ng table 2. Di ako tumingin, diretso lang.. XD Tal even accused me of askin' to go up b'cause mySmile was there.. Tsktsk. XD
END OF STORY... Hahaha!
Since I asked Him 'bout lettin' me to give gifts to mySmile as Valentine's and Bday, wala pa ko nakukuhang malinaw na sagot mula sa Kanya. Puro pagpaparamdam lang thru showin' up of aura lang.. XD Ang sign na hinihinge ko ay wala pa.. Kaya dahil din dun kaya hindi ako maka-move. Freeze pa ko. He owns my life kaya Siya ang decision maker ko.. Impulsive decision maker pa naman ako minsan. Hahaha! XD
Nyway,, friday na bukas. Kelangan na magprepare sa photoshoot para sa sat. Haha! Good night!!
Stress. Stress. Stress.
Ayaw ko na magisip.. -_-"
XD Things 'round me kill me.I was thinkin' 'bout the deadlines in school, the projects, reports, exams..
I was thinkin' 'bout life after grad..
I was thinkin' 'bout mySmile..
I am bound to my responsibilities.. It feels like I am really Ang of Avatar: The AirBender. XD
It feels like Java is the only subject we had. That I eventually forgot the other subjects that were loading up one by one with deadlines.
I like and love mySmile. Yeah, you read it right. I have fallen already to mySmile. BUT I couldn't move. Especially that I couldn't see any interest from mySmile. AND I couldn't move 'cause I am still bound with my responsibilities. I chose these responsibilities b'cause as a human being, I should do these things.
I was thinkin'.. IF mom will really deport me to SG this June, I was wishin' and hopin' that when I come back, I could still see mySmile. And hopin' that mySmile will still be single. Haha! XD That time, I guess, pede ko na siya kareerin. As we all know, my parents are 100% supporting me currently. Without them, I have nothin'. That's why I was keepin' in mind the ROI.
If it's not because of ROI, I might already killed myself long time ago.
XDA story... real one. Just happened this afternoon, lunch.
Kinikilig ako, honestly. Natutuwa ako, deep inside. Haha! Hindi ko pinahalata dahil di dapat. First of all, dapat ngayon palang ay hindi na ko masyado lumalapit sa mga pips. What I mean is bawasan dahil mahirap na pagnagkaroon ng attachment--kahit sa friendships. Ayaw kong may nalulungkot o nasasaktan sa mga fellas ko esp. when the time has come that we all need to separate. I love these buddies. Haha.
Nyway, back to the story I supposed to tell you. XD
Kami ay nag-lunch sa caf.. We (tal, pudhang, anatots, louga, and I) were seated sa tabi ng activity area (Explorers' Club was promotin' its events). Maingay.. Yeah.. Chit chat.. Kain.. After ko kumain, pahinga.. Waitin' for 12:30pm para umakyat na ng dorm. Alam ko na this day ay naka-sched ang photoshoot ni mySmile.. 10:00 to 11:30am to be exact. Hindi ako stalker. Nakita ko lang sa sched. -_-" Hahaha! XD Una kong sinabi nung nakita ko yung sched ay "Haha. Imposible na makita ko siya. Thank goodness! Nasa Java training pa ko." Hindi ko narin naman na gusto makita siya dahil gusto ko na mag-move on. Pero sa tuwing nakakamove-on na ko, dun naman siya bigla nagpapakita kaya ayun tuloy, bigla bigla nalang bumabalik feelings ko. -_-"
XDLapit na mag 11:30am.. I was lookin' at the caf's door, watchin' people comin' in and goin' out. Haha. At may thought bigla pumasok sa utak ko, "Andito pa kaya siya sa school.. Haha. Asa! XD" After few minutes, 'round 3-5mins, bigla siya pumasok ng caf's door! Wata! Hahaha! Tiningnan ko siya. Ayos na yun dahil lam ko naman na hindi niya ko makikita na nakatingin sa kanya at hindi rin niya makikita table namin... KASO! Iba ang ngyari! Nung napansin ko na papalapit siya sa area namin. Iniba ko na tingin ko. Tumingin na ko sa harap ko.
Set up ng tables area namin..
Us, table 1. Sa harap namin ay table 2. Sa kanan ng table 2 ay table 3. Nasa table 3 sila Amlehta and da other fwends. Haha.
Sa table 2, napapansin ko na na ang mga tao andun (come and go. one or two people were left) ay mga ka-org ni mySmile. (Sayin' the org's name is prohibited. XD) Then.. ayun!!! Lumapit siya sa table2!!! Nasa harap ko lang na table! AT bago siya magsettle down dun, nakayuko na ko--tryin' to be serious. XD Then amlehta called me. Lam ko kung bakit niya ko tinatawag. Ung unang tawag niya ay di ko pinansin. Tas ayun, ningunguso niya si mySmile. Sabi ko lang thru mouth movements ay "alam ko." Sabay small laugh. Then yuko ulet. XD Then nakikita kong kinakausap na ni Amlehta si mySmile..
At nung tumingin ako saglit sa harap na table (nasa harap ko lang kasi dude! amfanget ng upuan ko. XD), which is table 2, nakaupo na siya! OMG! Alam mo kung san siya nakaupo?? Sa harap ko! Nakaharap siya sakin! As in! We're facin' each other while there are two tables between us. -_- Before siya magsettle down dun, Lou asked me, "Baket ka tinawag ni Amleht?" I just pointed to Lou thru lips. XD Then Lou turned around then laughed! WAT DA LOUGA! Anlakas ng tawa niya na narinig ata ni mySmile. At sabi ni Lou, nung tumingin daw siya, nakita niyang nakatingin si mySmile samin. -_- Langya ka Louga!! XD Ayun nga. Nakaupo siya sa harap ko. Lou was in front of me. Pero my space between her and Tal that's why I could see mySmile thru the space. XD Di ko na siya tinitingan simula nung lumapit siya sa area namin, dahil baka makita niya ko. Mahirap na.. Kahit na sabihin natin na alam naman niya na may gusto ako sa kanya. HAHAHA! XDThen 12:35pm na. Ana asked me kung akyat naba kami. Then I said yes agad. Haha. Tumayo kami. Dumaan sa gilid ng table 2. Di ako tumingin, diretso lang.. XD Tal even accused me of askin' to go up b'cause mySmile was there.. Tsktsk. XD
END OF STORY... Hahaha!
Since I asked Him 'bout lettin' me to give gifts to mySmile as Valentine's and Bday, wala pa ko nakukuhang malinaw na sagot mula sa Kanya. Puro pagpaparamdam lang thru showin' up of aura lang.. XD Ang sign na hinihinge ko ay wala pa.. Kaya dahil din dun kaya hindi ako maka-move. Freeze pa ko. He owns my life kaya Siya ang decision maker ko.. Impulsive decision maker pa naman ako minsan. Hahaha! XD
Nyway,, friday na bukas. Kelangan na magprepare sa photoshoot para sa sat. Haha! Good night!!
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