Powerful women

Im very lucky working in HP.

My leaders..they're the people you can look up to.

My first team lead when I entered HP. Very independent, young, knowledgeable, inspirational, full of passion to her people, always joking. My first manager when I entered HP. Very independent, young, inspirational, passionate to her people, always smiling.

My next team lead in other team. Always smiling, young, seems like fun of joking, looks like very independent. My next manager in other team. Very smart, independent, knowledgeable.

Independent women. They're the kind of people I can look up to. ;)

Never expect

As much as I wanted to trust people again, I couldn't. There's now a doubt. I used not to have this. But why do I feel uneasy trusting people again. I don't understand myself. What's wrong?

Who cares if one of the persons I used to look up to disappointed and betrayed me. Who cares if this is not the first time a close family member disappointed me not once but many times?

I think I just have to lower my expectations toward people. I can trust them but never expect highly about them. Never think that they're worthy not unless proven.

Alright. I just have to forgive myself and to forgive them. Then lower my expectations not to get hurt again.

Never expect.

#Realization

Great escape

I need an escape.

I wanna go to a high place. Place where I can breath fresh air and think. And think while havin my own time. Time to repress my chaotic mind.

I need an escape.