big coward i am

You know what. I was thinkin' how to make mySmile like me too.
I don't know really how to court. I'm so torpe.
Yeah I like mySmile so much that I even love her.
However, I'm a big coward. I don't have the courage to ask mySmile out--or even talk to her.
Esp. now that she keeps on avoiding me.

I guess I'm really meant to be single forever. Wata life.. Tsktsk. XD

 

Leikeze Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

leave all the bad mem'ries behind en treasure da good ones

I gotta be honest wit you buddy.

Yeah. I sometimes remember the memories we had. You know who I'm referring to.
Don't know. But from Ching's birthday, it got to be once a day her memory will pop up in my head.

Yeah, you know and I know truly that I've done my best.
From the day she left, I've done my very best to get her back.
Not until the time I gave myself an end clue. And that's it.
However, it didn't stop there. I frequently anonymously texted or messaged her in any kinds of communication.
Just to know that she's fine.

However, as we all know, every little thing needs to give up sometimes and move on instead. And that's what I did.
I don't have any regrets now regarding to her. I know to myself that I loved her more than anyone else (next to Him) even myself.
I think the only mistake I've done is I forgot to love myself. 'Cause you know, I gave everything to her.
I gave her my love, my time, my attention, and almost all the things she wanted.

And now, it's really up to her if all the things I've given were not enough. I just hope that someday she'll realize my worth--but in a positive way. I mean is when that time comes she'll just smile while realizing it. :)

Now, I have given myself a chance again to be happy. I don't want to have another trauma in life though this experience was very traumatic in my part. But I asked God for courage to be able to love again. He said I should know first how to love myself. Then He has given me love and continually giving it so that I could love. As a result, I'm liking mySmile now. And I think I'm loving mySmile too. Someday, I'm goin' to tell mySmile about my feelings. With the suggestions of the few people I consulted, I'm goin' to wait while doin' some few moves.

As the year 2011 will enter, I'm goin' to start my year wit long prayers. It got to be long 'cause I'll pray for each and everyone of my fellas around in my life. And of course, thank Him for the wonderful and thrilled year 2010 He has given me. I've experienced and learned a lot.

And as I leave the year 2010, I'm also goin' to leave all the bad memories but treasure the good ones. I'm goin' to start again wit another year of full of fun and adventures.

 

Grandia Vrualg
Grand M0nde
Earth, Solar System

sometimes things happen unexpectedly--without plan

Yo!
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As usual, woke up at around 11:30am. Haha.
Michael and I should be goin' to some department store (SM Cubao) to buy the stuffs he needed. XD
However, not all things happen as you wanted them to be. Haha.
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Then, I and Rhea just went wit Ivan, Anne, and Aaron at Riverbanks. 
Rhea and I went to other way. The other three have their own date. Haha.
I skated at the other side of the river. Haha. Practiced wit ma heavy board. -_- You know what I mean--the deck length.
Had some fun of course. Ate a lot of fishballs and green mangoes--the street foods. Haha.
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Goin' back to the parking lot after some cold drinkin' at the 7Eleven.
Had some pictures taken wit the three. Haha.

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After, Mae replied me. Then I, together wit Rhea, went to Vista gate and had some lil' drink wit Mae. 
It's an unplanned bonding. Just a message I sent in dat evenin'. Haha.
We talked anythin' under da sun. Haha. Just da usual bonding by da two of us. XD
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We ended at 10pm. Haha.
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At home, danced all the dance songs of Step Up movies. Just drainin' da remainin' energy in me. XD
After few days, I finally saw an update to mySmile's wall. Though it's 'bout kpop. -_- tsktsk. Haha! XD

Nothing is impossible with Him. =D