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Just some random thoughts (while busy at work).. 😆

What if I was really the villain to the love story of Cha and Jake? What if they are really in love with each other? What if I didn't fight for Cha last year? Do you think they will still be together now? And do you think, Carol and I are already celebrating our first year anniversary this year?

Last year, Cha and Jake were in love with each other. I was madly in love with Cha. I didn't know that Carol was secretly liking me. I really looked like a villain! 😳😅

God, what have I done... 🥺 I was really immature back then. 😕

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Anyway, past is past. I've learned hard lessons from my past shortcomings. And I should be wary with my actions next time.

I should take care of Carol. I don't wanna lose another one. "Happy wife, happy life."

On the other side, Cha is my precious little sister. I'll be a caring and loving older sibling for her.

Confession

Yesterday, my love confessed to me that she already liked me even before when we were just friends (last year). That she even wished to St. Claire that I'll be her boyfriend in the future. She said, it took a year though but it finally happened.

I was at the gym when I found this out. Initial reaction, I was flattered. Because she used to tell me that she hated someone like me - Libra. Never thought that someone out there was actually prayed for me. I used to pray that Cha would be my "till death do us part" until August when I finally woke up and realized my worth - that I deserve someone who can fight for me and is faithful. When we were still together, I felt like na parang ako yung kabit at kailangan ko makipag-compete sa kanila. 🙁 Good thing I don’t have to feel that anymore with my love. She knows that I get jealous sometimes and she does things that will avoid to let me feel it.

Then friendship with my love blossomed. Actually, she was the one who made the first moves. She wanted us to be official couple ASAP. Though I initially told her that we should wait until we meet in person again, I asked her to be my girlfriend last October. She thought about it for few days. And finally said "yes" day after my birthday.

May she really be my right person. I will do my best to be the right person for her. So help us God.

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By the way, I played many games earlier 'cause it's holiday today. 😁 And I think, my impulsiveness took over - bought couple of clothes from Yesstyle. 😆😅

I chose you and will choose you

Recently, Carol and I got into a heated discussion. I was so pissed that I didn't even care if she broke up with me. Or I didn't wanna talk to her and didn't care anymore.

But then, I don't know what happened next. Told her I don't wanna fight with her and we're just in a discussion even though she didn't know I'm already pissed.

Now, I'm still in love with her. Told you, I'm not everyday in love with her. We didn't had video call for few days already.

She's having an internal battle. I can sense that she needs some time alone, to re-think about her life. I assured her that I will just be here supporting her. As much as I want to see her and hug her tightly, I still couldn't do it. The current situation doesn't permit us yet. Told her that I will do my best to serve my queen.

Love, don't be anxious about the future. So what if we don't have a house yet of our own? Our time will soon arrive. Just be patient, stay strong, and keep on striving for our personal goals. Wherever you want to live and settle down, I'll be okay with it. I chose you and will choose to stay with you till the end. For our future kids and our family, let's do our best! I love you my love.