Maybe because

Maybe because,
I still love you.

That despite all the cheating and hurts, I am still welcoming you with wide open arms.

Maybe because,
I am still in love with you.

That despite the norm tells me to say it quits, I am still here ready to accept the new you.

I don't like you at all anymore.
But I still love you.
And this love - God's love - is telling me to forgive, move on, and start a new.

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God, lead my life. Lead our life both. May you be the center of this relationship - not anyone else. Keep us away from all the things and creatures who only desire us to fall and go astray. Keep us away from the worldly temptations.

I love you God. Thank you for your unending love.

In Jesus name I pray, amen!

Chance

Why am I doing this?

Been trying to block all means of communications of that stalker in ハニー's phone. But the owner doesn't want to in the first place.

Why am I doing this?

She should know her limits and between what's right and wrong. She's in her right age. Protection should not be coming from me. She should know how to protect herself.

Why am I doing this?

It doesn't make sense. I should stop - treating her like a baby. Treating her like she doesn't know what she's doing. Let her face the consequences of every action she's doing in her life.

Why am I doing this?

Being over protective will only cause her to do things that I don't like. I should refrain myself from giving so much life lessons or teachings if the person is already fed up on it. It will only cause the person to rebel.

Why am I doing this?

I should stop. Let her be. And just need to watch and observe. Anyway, another chance was given. Let's see how she'll take care of that one last chance - the trust.

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Please help her, God. May she continually seek your wisdom and knowledge for every decision and action she'll take in her life.

Karma is real

Why? Why am I doing this in the first place?
Why am I involving myself to useless creatures?

I don't deserve this!

I have already moved on but ハニー returned. And I treated that as a change of heart. I assumed that all kabit are already gone in her life. All stalkers stopped squishing theirselves to our lives. But it was not the case, the more you block them in all means of communications, the more they push themselves hard. 🤬 Fuck humans!

I don't deserve this!

I can't fight for someone that can't even love him/herself. I can't fight for someone who can't even stand to what s/he believes is right. My sense of justice is bursting out!

I don't deserve this!

Being a light and shining armor doesn't do anything good especially if the person you are fighting for can't even appreciate your efforts nor see the same outlook as you have.

I don't deserve this!

Niloko. Sinaktan. Niloko. Inagrabyado. In the end, may kasalanan parin in the eyes of the person you are fighting for. Fuck humans!

I don't deserve this!

This doesn't make sense!

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I'm fond of threatening people to kill them. But honestly, I don't have the guts to do it. Why? I will not spend my valuable time to useless things. I will not stain my hands with useless creatures. They don't deserve my attention in the first place.

I'd rather see and watch them wither away by time and karma. Then laugh my ass off watching them suffer by the circumstances they created.


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Be cool Rove. Your time don't deserve them. Your time is much more valuable than their life. Forget them and move on. Trust karma. It will take them one day. 😉 Just be cool. Stay cool. 😎