Rejection, always part of life

When was i got rejected for the very first time? Dont know! Cant remember. All i know is, i got rejected many times already - by my teacher, friend, crush, etc. They made me tough but then a little bit cautious. Or maybe, cautious about telling other people what i really feel.

It was like i preferred being quiet and doing nothing. But i should overcome that. Need to voice out what i really feel. Dont fake it. It's easy to say but difficult to do. Well~

"Where are thou, watashi no soulmate."

Soulmate or sole mate

Nagkakagusto ako..pero wala naman gusto sakin. Kinukulit ko, dinadaldal ko, pero wala effect. Na-ffeel ko lang na parang pinagpipilitan ko lang sarili ko kahit na hate na hate naman ako.

Hindi na pedeng makakita ako na gusto ko at magugustuhan din ako? Haaaay. Or torpe lang talaga ko? Or duwag? Hindi ko alam! Or ayaw ko lang talaga yung pinagsisiksikan or pinagpipilitan ko ang sarili ko sa bagay na ayaw naman sakin. Maybe because I love myself that much? I dont know!

Hopefully matagpuan ko na ang isa sa mga soulmates ko..kahit saan pa ng mundo sya naroroon. Sana magkita na kami...

What tomorrow holds

Have started cleaning up...though im quite not sure what will happen to me the next day. I just always lay everything to Him as I dont know anymore. -_- Love u God. Please help me. I will just do what you want me to do for the day. :) thank you for all the blessings and LOVE!! ^_^

Extra: "Being chased by men but is chasing women." Haha!