Frozen - I don't understand

"A person can't love others unless that person loves himself.
A person can't understand others unless he understands himself."

Why? I really don't understand. I hope someone could stop me for I've already ran around in circles until I could run no more. I can't undersand everyone, my family , my cousins, even my friends. Is there something I'm looking for? Or maybe there's juz something wrong with me.

Yes. Something's wrong with me.

Like wrath, I am lost. Like lust, I need someone. Like sloth, I am no one. Like gluttony, I am hungry. Like greed, I want to be free. Like pride, I want to be someone. Like envy, I want revenge.

Still...

I don't understand.

To an old granny I asked, "what could possibly a person need?" then she answered, "false teeth ofcourse!". To a rich bastard I asked the same question and he answered, "money!" and then he laughed. This time I asked a teenager the same question and she answered "love". Love... Is that what a person need? That answer of hers consumed my mind. Love? what love?

I was walking back home from "oneshop" when I accidently bumped a little girl on the way. She was posting something to the bulletin board near the shop. I didn't bother to check what she was posting, I left after saying sorry.

"wait" she called out and then pointed at the paper she posted. I know what she was trying to say but, I just don't care what she posted there so I just gave it a glance.

"wait" she called out again and then gave me a look words cannot explain. I asked why but she gave no reply. Once again, I don't understand. I asked her the question I was asking to those strangers I met. Then she gave a different answer. Her answer was "God".

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Eh? God? God? hmm.. God!

How could I? How could I neglect my creator, my master, my father, my everything! how! I'm so stupid, ignorant, ashamed.

Yes. Ashamed, so ashamed.

I began thinking, thinking straight again. I began to see, seing everything. My heart, it was beating. Beating.. beating.. beating...

My life... my life was frozen.

That little girl. She gave me that answer. How could a little girl be so smart than the others? How did she know that I was like... frozen. How did she know that I was looking for an answer? Or is it a coincidence. Her calls, does she really want me to look at the paper she posted?

I have to go there, back to that bulletin board. I have to go there and satisfy my curiosity.

There...In the paper she wrote...

"has anyone seen my parents?"



author:
well, it was a true story... I just wanna clear that. I showed it to a friend of mine from a different country but she just laughed at me. She's my cousin and my friend, she always laughs at me so I guess it's normal. hahaha! LoL

the "granny" I asked was the one who sell "balot" near the tricycle terminal.
the "rich bastard"? he's from school. I didn't ask my classmates on purpose, I guess... Well you know how a pilot student's answer can be! hehehhe...(don't ask me why bastard, you already know!)
the "teenager"? yup! she's from school too.
the "little girl"?

well, she's our neighbor, my little sister's bestfriend and...

the one who melted that stupid ice. She's ok now. I guess... but still looking for them. She just can't accept the fact that her parents will never come back. Unfortunately, even alchemy can't return them!

oh yeah, regine reminded me of FMA so... they're there! hahaha! please don't bewildered!

and "me"? I still don't understand...I still don't understand that she answered that question so good! LoL!