False hope

Sheeeeet! Nananiginip na naman ako!!!

Twice ko napanaginipan si チャ. Darn! I might have probably missed her so much.. 😭

One dream, (forgot how) pero I was kissing her in the lips.
Then a second dream followed, umuwi raw sya late night, surprises me. Pag bukas ko ng gate, I found myself flung my arms around her and kissing her in the lips. I was trying to wake myself up kasi baka panaginip. Di ako magising gising until bigla ako nagising, nagmmeow na si Frappe.

God, please don't torture me like this. Dahil ba masakit ang reality ko kaya sa dreams nyo nalang ako pinagbibigyan? Wag na po..you're giving me false hope na she'll return to me as my partner, my woman. Baka nga nasa piling na nga sya ng iba ngayon.. 😔 God, heal me. Mas okay kung bigyan nyo ko ng amnesia or tumor sa utak para makalimutan ko sya completely. My subconscious mind badly misses her. But my reality hurts right now.