Suppress/repress all the memories

God, it hurts... 3 days, 3 nights...
When I'm alone, I'm having a breakdown...
When I face to people, I make sure that what they can only see is a smiling face.

4 years...
I prayed for her since 2010. That the next person I'm going to fall in love with is the person I'm gonna marry someday...
God, you know I've been praying for this for all these years... I told you that I'm gonna be faithful and loyal to her...
I even gave her a promise ring, which I thought about for many months...
If this is what you would like to happen - her leaving me behind, You shouldn't have introduced her to me.

When it all started? That her heart was going away...
When this all has started God? When? 😢

Please God... If this is what you want, remove all the memories, memories since May 23, 2015. I'm begging you God... 😭

It would hurt me more if there's someone she would like to date, right after she left me. Sabihin nya nalang sakin straight para mas madali mag move on. 😢 Well, mahirap parin since I was faithful and loyal to her. Pero atleast I know the real reason.

In the end, I still desire her happiness. I'll do my best to take all these sadness and sufferings. For her, I'll do it.

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I'll just cry and pour it out every night... cry to sleep, until my memories are suppressed and repressed and my tear ducts don't shed a single tear.