Sadness is inevitable

What's the hardest thing?

1. Nanliligaw sa taong gusto mo but likes you even a little.
2. Iniiwasan ka ng taong mahal mo.
3. Busted ka ng nililigawan mo.
4. Nakipaghiwalay sayo jowa mo.
5. Nililigawan mo ex mo na ang trato sayo ay parang kayo parin pero hindi kayo.

5!!!! You don't know where you are in his/her heart/mind. You were treated special (e.g. hold hands, hugs, intimate concern, etc like what couples do), but hindi kayo. When you ask, "what's my status to you?" The always answer is "I don't know."

Hindi ko alam kung may pag-asa ba ko or dapat ko na ba tigilan kasi walang pag-asa as I was not given a chance kahit ano gawin ko.

Chance. The only thing I am asking for. Chance to prove myself. Chance to prove my worth. But if the person is already close-minded, talo na ko bago pa mag-start ang laban.

I don't know. Now, I'm confused. Maybe I just need to take it slowly and just relax. Then bahala na kung ano mangyari. I don't have to push myself further if it's not being appreciated.

"Never chase love. If it isn't given freely, it is worthless." -Paulo Coelho

At some point, I don't agree with it. Forgiveness is love. In order to be forgiven, one has to pay the price. Then love has a price.

But yes, God is love. God is free. Even the poorest person can go to God. Then love is free.

Where any kind of medicine doesn't cure your sadness.

Goodnight!