As much as I want to..

As much as I want to
- date and have my own lovelife
- get my own flat to practice independency
- go to all places I wanna pay a visit

I can't.. I just can't.. With the responsibilities I have. I need to set an example. I should be a role model. It would be lighter if I don't have pasaway na mga kapatid. But I have. I feel pressured with these responsibilities. Maybe this is why I can't leave the house for other country just not yet. What will happen when my parents are away and busy? I will be freakin worried. If only matitino mga kapatid ko, I won't have to worry for our parents, for Venice, for the household, for the family business, and for them. *sigh*

So help me God.. Please help us out.