11/10/2010 completely let go

Talkin' to J9:

Yo!

I think I have already made up my mind..

Last Novermber 10, 2010, Sharry made think of somethin'. I said to her that I am still waiting for you though I am not expecting. Then she said, 'Are you really not expecting?'. Then I came to a thought that I might be still hoping even 10% or less.

After that, Lei's statement came to my mind again, "Hindi hinahanap yan. Kusang dumarating yan."

Then I prayed to Him that I will just lay unto him everything. That I'll stop praying for you to come back to me. I'll just let it all down into Him. I'll just trust him with all my thoughts and heart. I'm just a human being. I don't know everything. And I don't understand everything. He knows everything, my future, what I am feeling, my thoughts, everything. Unlike me, I don't even really understand myself. But He, He knows it all.

I still pray for you though, as friend. I'll still pray for your life like all of my other friends.

Now, I've already started doin' my thing without your thoughts. I think I have already move on - hope so.

Have let you go completely.. And let Him lead my way..

 

Grandia Leikeze Yrekcah Van Helsing
Grand M0nde
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