useless...

Why are they hiding some secrets from me? Or it is just I am who shows do-not-care attitude? Or it is just I'm not asking? Either of them all, I still have the rights to know about these stuffs.

I remembered the talks Karla and I had in Y.M. She had say about printing accounting that I do not know at all. I asked her what it is. Then our question and answer portion lead to her sermons. She said that why I didn't try to ask anybody when we're in school or I just don't care at all - about sorts of stuff. Then she had also say that I should talk even a little because my mouth is becoming useless. And why I can stand not talking for long hours - I might be deaf that's why. Then some people who are deafs are wishing to talk then I, who has given a voice to hear, do not talk at all. Hahahaha! Lol! Our conversation, I mean her sermons, is so fun! I just laugh, but I'm really can't help myself from laughing.

Yeah! I'm not fun of talking when I do not want to or I haven't anything to say. I talk a lot in the right place at the right time. And I also choose topics where I could say senseful things. I feel embarassed afterwards when I talk senseless things. I better love to listen than to talk. But it doesn't meant that I could not talk at all.

Getting away from the main topic... Ahhhhhh! They should have told me! But I think whether they have told me or not, I couldn't do anything at all. I'm just useless. I may be useless this time but someday I can be more than useful -waha! For now I need to be strong and not show any signs of cowardness or weaknesses, even though I'm just watching them.

;D