Lookin' ahead of ya

Ok fine the last post is useless. That should be in the trash now!

TRASH!

I'm really in a tight spot now. All of the fourth years are! Um, some must've been made up their minds. All I know is that I'm still confused.

What do I want when I grow up?

Yeah, this common question that can be answer even by a two year old have been bugging my mind. When I was a child, back when I don't know what art is and I don't know how to draw, I always envied those people who knows how to draw and how to design and stuff. No one taught me for no one in my family knows how to draw. My dad knows but he was sailin' in the middle of the ocean that time, back when his mind told him that there are many coins scattered in the ocean. I taught myself. Tracing pictures from different kinds of books really helped me. back then, I can already draw tweety, hello kitty and a small mouse. (not boasting) This memory proved me that art or drawing was already inside of me even when I was a child.

No really what do I want?

When I was I grade four or five, I have always dreamed of putting up a bakery (pantasia??? hahaha! azuma kazuma! anu ulit title nun?). I want to design cakes and stuff. When I was in my first year of highschool, I want to be teacher. Reason? 'coz teachers recieves many gifts especially on valentines day and christmas parties! hahaha! When I was in Third year, I agreed to become an accountant ("how hard could it be?"-what I said to my mom back then.)
Now, I don't know...

I want to be an interior designer. Why? I love designing houses, chairs, tables, beds and even dresses but mom doesn't want to. My dad approves... (I hate controlling costs of each item!-get it?)

I want to take fine arts and other concerning art. But, that doesn't help me, why? I NEED to be CERTAIN!

I want to take architecture. Dad approves.. my mom doesn't. her only problem was the school. Mapua? Mapua in makati does have architecture, only in the intramuros branch. Malayo daw!
UST? layo din daw... Global? tagal na ata la sa choices yan... Snt Benilde? layo din daw eh...

If I take accounting which I just thought that I don't want it, mom approves but well, there's still a problem for her... She wants a school who is especialized in that field. PSBA? she thinks the surrounding of the school is dangerous. MAPUA (makati)? having second thought but nearly in approval. my dad? well, I guess he just nods on everything we ask him except...

Nursing? ah! I already canceled that on my list years and years ago! why? I'm afraid of blood or any kind of bruise! Dad hates that too! he said its icky! LOL! my mom approves of it and I can go to GCIC if I will be taking nursing. why she approved? because she wants me to go abroad.

Oh yeah, there a new course on my list.

CIVIL ENGINEERING. Whoa! waw! I must be very desperate on studying in Mapua. But the bad news is I hate geometry! which is one of its subjects and also in architecture and Mapua Makati doesn't have civil e. Only in intramuros branch.

AHHH!!!

why can't my parents understand???? Is it for my own good? or for their benefits? Popularity?

ahh! uhu-uhu... ok i'm always cryin' these days.. (cry baby!)

any suggestions? comments? ADVICE?

^.^ --- erm.. help..---