Trying not to contact you since you're the one who blocked and left me. Well, there are still days I thought of you. Pero Universe keeps on reminding me not to chase you and never push myself to anyone again.

I was devastated when you suddenly disappeared. I just wanted to tell you that it's not difficult to love you (like I always tell you), one just need to learn how. I should have not pressured you. Instead, I should have went with the flow, in your own speed or phasing. When you were gone, I realized that I was anxiously attached to you.

I am doing my best to heal from all the pain. Maybe in another world, we're still together. I've loved you more than you know.

P.S. This is not a new email address. It's my email address since I was 14yrs old. I don't want you think that I am stalking you that's why I didn't create any SocMed account/s anymore just to message you. I am respecting your privacy.

Supposedly Bday Gift to Anj

You know, the bag I bought last September as my supposedly bday gift for you, is still in the cabinet. Don't know what to do with it. 😅 I don't have anyone to give it to. Dunno. Let's see.

Thoughts for the day

I know hindi pa ko 100% got over kay Anj. Pero I know I'm in the process of moving on. I've already accepted everything - completed na yung chapter ng buhay namin sa isa't isa. Accepted ko na na hindi lahat ay over my control. Sinusuko ko na lahat kay God at sa Universe lahat ng plans and desires of my heart and mind. I should start healing myself and loving myself more. I should take care of myself the way I did 10-15yrs ago.

Kelangan ko ayusin financials ko para magkaroon ako ng financial freedom at magtrravel travel nalang. 😄

So help me God! In Jesus name, amen!

To the last woman I thought will be my wife

I didn't care about your past.
I did want to be your present and future.
I know we both had faults but you let go too early. I chose you everyday and you seldom chose me, I know.
I did prayed for you to God and the Universe to be my future wife. But I guess we're not really meant to be.
Anyway, I will continually pray that we'll end up with our person eventually. Our person who will bring out the best in us and whom we'll choose everyday no matter how hard life is.

I loved you Angela Jaso Hapin. May we find peace and happiness in God's grace.

Goodbye my Padaba

I'm sorry Padaba.
If only I have known that this will happen, I should have restrained myself. And waited for the day we'll meet in person before I discuss with you the difficult topics. 😔
I have failed. We both failed, we both know.
I have forgiven myself. Hope you'll forgive yourself too.
I did prayed to God and the Universe if they can give you to me as my wife. But I guess, we're not really meant to be. 😔
In case we'll meet again, hope we've both grown to be better partners.
Thank you for everything. You always have a special place in my heart. I love you. さようなら。

As of Oct 20, amen!

Na-accept ko narin naman lahat. Time to move on. Na-inlove lang naman ako kay Anj dahil sa height nya at sa background/past nya. I thought sya na yung pakakasalanan ko at have family with in the future. Pero avoidant character talaga sya. If willing lang sana sya to work out our relationship and if still chooses me everyday just like how I choose her, I will make sure that we'll grow together.
Pero past is past. I think it's God plan in order to save me, to save my heart. I'll just go with the flow from now. I need to make my heart get better after 6mos or 1year.

My goal right now is to return home due to my heart health. I need enough money to renovate the room where I'll live. Will probably loan from bank. Bahala na kung lumaki utang. 😅 God will provide.

Tama na

Quota na. Tama na Rove. Enough is enough.
Be with people who wants to be with you.

Tigilan mo na si Anj. Mag move on kana.