If it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be

Goin to Bontoc made me realize that I'll never be one of her priorities.

I think it's time for me to let her go. I'm not an option nor a past time only.

I have no regrets anyway. I know I've done my best for our relationship. I did the most effort, always find time to be together. Invested much even I'm broke.

I don't want to beg anyone for their time anymore. I always set aside my pride when I love someone. But now, I think God is teaching me to be patient. To wait. Not to beg anyone again. And learn how to let go when it's time.

God, let Your will Thy be done. Even I prayed to you and to the Universe to give Anj to me, to be my last and forever partner, I still don't know if she's the right person for me.

I'll let her go na God and Universe. I don't want to force anyone anymore. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

Hike to new life

This time is the perfect time to start moving on.
Grab this opportunity.
I've started introducing myself as single. Not to find new but to enjoy without limit.

2nd time she wanted to break up

Maybe it's time to let go?

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I went to Padaba tonight just to see her 'cause I was missing her. Then she told me that she wanted to break up because she doesn't have time for me. Nasasakal na raw sya. And it's better na single nalang sya.

I told her na if that's the setup she likes, she'll reply whenever she likes, she'll meet me whenever she likes, I'll let her. And asked her if she still wants to continue. She said 'yes'.

Now, I'm torn between holding on or letting go. It's already a red flag that she'll only spend time with me at her convenience.

I also realized that I might becoming controlling. 😞 The same way I did to my exes. I should change this.

Starting from now, I'll just reply to Anj whenever she'll message or call me. Para di ako maging controlling, I should be conscious to every little thing I will do that involves her. Pero syempre, I will still say 'no' when needed para di magmukhang ginagamit lang ako.

At the same time, mag momove on narin ako para di ako ma-attach masyado. And it will start this weekend, sa hike sa mountain province. Tutal 2mos palang naman kami at 5mos palang magkakilala. Di pa ganun kasakit siguro. Haha.

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God and Universe, ilayo nyo ko sa mga maling tao. Nawa'y ipakilala nyo na sakin ang tamang tao sakin para di na ko magsayang ng oras sa kahit sino. Thank you and amen!